CHAPTER XXXVI.
Sister Emmerich is Placed Under Arrest. — Her Pre-sentiment of this Event. — Its Results.
第三十六章
艾曼丽修女被捕-——她对这一事件的预感，及事件的结果
From the beginning of the ecclesiastical year, 1818-' 19, Almighty God prepared Sister Emmerich for the expiatory sufferings in store for her. The events from which these sufferings were to arise were still future, but the invisible enemy of man had already his powerful engines at work toward their furtherance. The mystery of iniquity which “already worketh," according to St. Paul, was making at that period new and vigorous exertions to sap the foundations of faith in many dioceses, and the weapons used were precisely those which are now about to be turned against the poor invalid herself.
从1818年至1819年教会年一开始，全能的天主就为艾曼丽修女准备好了她将要遭受的赎罪的苦难。产生这些痛苦的事件还在将来，但人类的看不见的敌人已经拥有强大的引擎，推动它们前进。根据圣保禄的说法，罪恶的奥秘‘已经在发生’，在那个时期正在做出新的和有力的努力，来削弱许多教区的信仰基础，而所使用的武器正是那些即将被用来对付可怜的病人的武器。
As in preceding ages, so was it now: unworthy clerics in the service of anti-Catholic and secret societies, were the inventors and executors of measures which, under the name of " Fundamental Rules" "Ecclesiastical Laws" " Conventions" "Acts' of Endowment" etc., were destined to destroy secretly but surely the Church of Jesus Christ. As the struggle drew near, the invalid's visions became more comprehensive, more significant. They were not only prophetic pictures, but real, personal combats, fruitful in results inasmuch as they were a continued development of the great combat of the Church ; she suffered and accomplished in very truth all that she saw in vision. The sentiments and designs of the Churches enemies were made known to her, that she might oppose them by prayer.
和以前的时代一样，现在的情况也是如此：反天主教和为秘密社团服务的不称职的神职人员，是各种措施的发明者和执行者，这些措施以「基本规则」、「教会法」、「公约」、「资助法案」等名义，注定要秘密而肯定地摧毁耶稣基督的教会。 随着斗争的临近，病人的神视异象变得更加全面、更加重要。这些神视异象不仅是预言性的画面，而且是真实的、个人的战斗，其成果丰硕，因为这些神视异象是教会伟大战斗的持续发展，她经历了痛苦，并真正地完成了她在神视异象中看到的一切工作。天主让她了解了教会敌人的企图和计划，以便她可以通过祈祷来反对他们。
Her visions were not idle dreams, nor her action in them vain and imaginary, rather was it the confirmation of her own marvellous spiritual life. This life was one, having but one and the same operations although existing in two different worlds and following a two- fold law, the world of sensible things and that elevated above the senses. In contemplation, she prays, she struggles, she triumphs ; whilst, at the same moment, she suffers in the natural state, or accomplishes her duties of ordinary life.
她的神视异象不是空想，她在神视异象中的行动也不是徒然的和想象的，而是她自己奇妙的超性生活的证实。这个生命是一个存在，虽然存在于两个不同的世界并遵循双重法则，即感性事物的世界和超越感官的世界，但只有一种相同的运作。在默观中，她祈祷，她挣扎，她胜利；同时，她在自然状态下受苦，或完成她日常生活中的本份。
In both cases she is free, in the full possession of her faculties and of all that is requisite, in the natural and supernatural order, to produce meritorious acts. Her external life bears the same relation to her transcendent interior life as the symbol to the thing signified, the similitude to the reality, the shell to the kernel. Her persecutors are, though unconsciously, the representatives of the tendencies of the period. Of these prophetic visions, the invalid was able to recount but a very small part. It is, however, enough to awaken the surprise of the reader, when he beholds how exactly they were realized in all that referred to her own approaching trials.
在这两种情况下，她都是自由的，完全拥有她的能力和所有必要的恩宠，在自然和超自然的秩序中产生美好圣德的行为。她的外在生活与她超然的内在生活有着同样的关系，正如象征与所指之物、相似与现实、外壳与内核的关系一样。她的迫害者，虽然他们没有意识到，但却是那个时代潮流的代表。在这些预言性的神视异象中，这位病人能够讲述的只是很小的一部分。然而，这足以唤醒读者的惊讶，因为读者将看到预言是如何准确的实现，这些都指向她自己即将到来的考验。
Advent, 1818. — “I have been warned by my guide to prepare for a severe struggle. I must invoke the Holy Ghost to inspire me what to answer. I do it now all day, and I know what this struggle will be. Artful men will attack me and try to make me contradict myself by their perfidious questioning. It seemed as if my heart would break. But I turned to my Heavenly Spouse and said : ‘Thou hast begun the work, Thou wilt also bring it to a close ! I abandon myself entirely to Thee!’— and then when I had put the case into His hands, I felt great strength and peace in God. I said : ' Joyfully will I be torn to pieces, if thereby I can help the world!’— Among my persecutors I saw a physician and some ecclesiastics who came, one after another, to take me away. They pretended to be very friendly, but I saw the deceit in their heart.
1818 年的将临期。「我的护守天神警告我，要我准备好迎接一场激烈的斗争。我必须祈求圣神启发我该如何回答。我现在一整天都在这样祈求圣神，我知道这将是一场怎样的斗争。狡猾的人会攻击我，并试图用他们背信弃义的质问来使我自相矛盾。我的心似乎要碎了。但我转向我天上的净配说：『祢已经开始了这项工作，祢也将结束它！我将自己完全交托给祢！』然后当我将这件事交托给祂时，我在天主里面感受到了极大的力量和平安。我说：『如果我能帮助这个世界，我会很高兴地被撕成碎片！』在我的迫害者中，我看到了一位医生和一些神职人员，他们一个接一个地来，他们想把我带走。他们假装很友好，但我看到了他们内心的欺骗。
"May 19th — I have had a bad night. I was assailed on all sides and torn to pieces, but I remained calm, I rejoiced at what was done to me, and I recognized the instigators of the affair and the chief actors in it. They all talked at once, clamored around me, and ended by tearing me piecemeal. Not one of my friends was present, no one to help me, no priest. I became sad, and I thought of Peter's abandonment of his Lord.
「5月19日——我度过了一个糟糕的夜晚。我遭到了四面八方的攻击，被撕得粉碎，但我仍然很冷静，我为所遭受的一切感到高兴，我认出了这件事的煽动者和其中的主要参与者……他们一齐说话，围着我叫嚣，最后把我撕得粉碎。没有一个朋友在场，没有人来帮助我，也没有神父。我心里很难过，我想到伯多禄离弃了他的主。
“I saw a party of men assembled to deliberate and exult over their cunningly devised plans to carry me off. They resolved to make use of new means. My guide told me to be calm, that if they succeeded, it would end in their own confusion and be all for the best.
「我看到一群人聚集在一起，商议着要把我掳走的诡计，他们为此庆贺。他们决定使用新的手段。护守天神告诉我要保持冷静，如果他们成功了，他们会在自已的混乱中结束，一切都会好起来的。
" May 28, 1819 — I saw myself alone in my time of trial and, what was worse, my confessor dared not come to me. He seemed forced to go away without bidding good -by, I had a vision in which I found myself alone in a room with only Sister Neuhaus. Then some people came and fell upon me at the right side and foot of my bed, I was utterly defenceless.
1819 年 5 月 28 日——我看到我独自一人接受审判，更糟糕的是，我的神师不敢来看我。他似乎没有告别就被迫离开，我有一个神视，我发现自己和诺伊豪斯修女单独呆在一个房间里。然后一些人来了，从我的右侧和床脚扑向我，我完全没有防备。」
“June 6th — I have had a very miserable night. I saw myself abused more than ever, I cannot think of it without shuddering. I was abandoned by all my friends. My bed stood in the middle of the room, and I was tended by strangers. I knew that I was in this miserable state on account of a quarrel between some ecclesiastics and laics, who tore me to pieces to show their mutual contempt. I saw Dean Overberg in the distance sitting sad and silent, and I thought all was over with me.
「6 月 6 日——我度过了一个非常悲惨的夜晚。我看到自己比以往任何时候都更受虐待，我一想到这就不寒而栗。我被我所有的朋友抛弃了。我的床放在房间的中央，我由陌生人照看。我知道我之所以处于这种悲惨的境地，是因为一些神职人员和平信徒之间发生了争吵，他们把我撕成碎片，以表示他们互相蔑视。我看到远处的奥弗伯格总铎悲伤地、沉默地坐着，我想我完了。
"July 17, 1819 — Again I had visions of my approaching trials. I saw all my old convent companions visiting me, speaking of our past intercourse, and questioning me as to whether I had or had not said when in the convent such or such things of my state, etc. I could not understand what they were aiming at, and I said : ‘God knows what they and I have done !' — Then I saw them all going to confession and Communion, after which they came back to me. They were, however, no better than before, and they tried to find something out from me, I know not what.
「1819 年 7 月 17 日——我再次看到我即将到来的考验。我看到我修道院所有的老同伴都来拜访我，谈起我们过去的交往，并询问我在修道院的时候有没有说过这样或那样我的状况的话，等等。我不明白她们的目的是什么，我对自己说：『天主知道她们和我做了什么！』——然后我看到她们都去办了告解并领了圣体，之后她们又回到我身边。但她们并没有比以前更好，她们试图从我这里打听到什么，我也不知道那是什么。
I asked them if they did not know that, long before my joining them, I had had unaccountable pains in my hands and feet; that when with them, I had often made them touch the palms of my hands which were burning hot ; and that my fingers had been quite dead, without my understanding what it all meant ? Was I not unable for a long while to take food on account of the vomiting it brought on ? Was not this the case for seven months without my attaching any importance to it ? Did I not think it a sickness, although it never kept me from my duties, or from prayer, my only delight? But I found them all hesitating and insincere in their declarations.
我问她们，难道她们不知道，在我加入她们之前，我的手脚就一直莫名其妙地疼痛；和她们在一起时，我经常让她们触摸我灼热的手掌；而且我的手指已经完全僵硬了，而我却不明白这一切意味着什么？我不是因为呕吐而有很长一段时间不能进食吗？这种情况不是已经持续了七个月,而我却丝毫没有重视这种情况吗？难道我不认为这是一种病吗？尽管这病从未妨碍我履行我的本份，也没有使我耽误过我唯一的乐趣--祈祷？但我发现她们的话都是犹豫不决，言不由衷的。
All sought to clear themselves from blame, all excepting the Superioress and Sister Neuhaus — they alone were honest. After this came a great many of my acquaintances — they did as they always do, they spoke at random, not one willing to stand up for me. The Abbe Lambert could not help me, they would not listen to him. My confessor was not far off, but he was dejected and weary. Then six ecclesiastics and laics, among them two Protestants, came not all together but one by one, and some were false and malicious to the last degree. The sweetest and blandest among them treated me the worst. Then a man came in saying : ‘Whatever is done to this person will also be done to me.' I knew him not, but he stayed by me a long time and was honest and true to me. He saw all that was done, but he could not help me. When the others surrounded me (my bed stood in the middle of the floor) they were careful not to jostle him. Then they began to put all kinds of questions, but I made no answer. I had already responded three different times, as recorded in the report, and I had nothing more to say.
所有人都试图洗清罪责，只有女修道院院长和和诺伊豪斯修女是诚实的。在这之后，我的很多熟人都来了——他们像往常一样，随意地说话，没有人愿意为我站出来。兰伯特神父无法帮助我，他们不会听他的。我的神师离我不远，但他很沮丧和疲惫。然后六个神职人员和平信徒，其中有两个新教徒，不是一起来，而是一个接一个地来的，有的甚至是虚假和恶意到极点。他们中最亲切和最温和的人对我的态度最恶劣。然后一个人进来说：「对这个人所做的，也会做在我身上。」我不认识他，但他在我身边待了很长时间，对我很真诚。他看到他们做了一切，但他无法帮助我。当其他人包围我（我的床放在房间中央）他们小心翼翼地不推挤他。然后他们开始提出各种各样的问题，但我没有回答。正如报告中所记录的，我已经在不同的时间回答了三次，没有什么可说的了。
The Vicar-General was near by ; there was some question of him. I saw that the Dean (Rensing) was interested ; he gave instructions but he was not for me. Dean Overberg was absent, but praying for me. The two little nuns Frances and Louisa comforted me. They repeated continually: ‘Have courage, only courage ! all will be right ! ' — My persecutors began to draw off the skin from my hands and feet. They found the marks of a deeper red than those on the surface. They did the same to my breast and discovered the cross more plainly marked below than on the skin. They were amazed, they knew not what to say ! In silence they slunk away one after another; each told his own story, but all were confounded. Whilst lying there awaiting the operation on my wounds, I was seized with anguish ; but the two holy nuns encouraged me, promising that no evil would result from it.
副主教就在附近，有一些关于他的问题。我看到这引起了总铎（伦辛）的关注；副主教给了指示，但他不是为我。奥弗伯格总铎不在附近，但他为我祈祷。但为我祈祷的两位小修女弗朗西丝和路易莎安慰我。她们不断重复：「要有勇气，只要有勇气！一切都会好的！」——迫害我的人开始剥我手脚上的皮。他们发现了比表面更深的红色痕迹。他们对我的胸部做了同样的事情，发现皮下的十字架比皮肤上的更明显。他们都惊讶，不知道说什么好！他们默默地溜走，一个接一个地离去；每个人都讲述了自己看到的事，但所有人都感到困惑。当我躺在那里等待给我伤口做手术时，我感到痛苦万分；但两位圣洁的修女鼓励我，并保证不会有什么邪恶的后果。
Then a marvellously beautiful little Boy in a long robe appeared to me ; His face shone like the sun. He took my hand, saying: ‘Come, we will thank our dear Father!' — and raising me up lightly we went into a beautiful chapel, open in front and only half-finished. It appeared to be split down the middle. On the altar were the pictures of St. Barbara and St. Catherine. I said to the little Boy : ‘Why the chapel is split!’ — and he replied : ‘And it is only half-finished.' — I felt that we were near a magnificent mansion in which many persons were awaiting me. It was surrounded by gardens and fields, paths and groves, it was like a little village. Still it seemed as if it were afar off, and there did not appear to be any place as yet destined for me.
这时，一个穿着长袍的漂亮的出奇的小男孩出现在我面前；他的脸像太阳一样闪闪发光。他拉着我的手说：「来吧，我们要感谢我们亲爱的天父！」然后，轻轻地握着我的手，我们走进了一座美丽的小教堂，教堂的正面是敞开的，还没有完工。教堂似乎从中间分裂了。祭台上是圣芭芭拉和圣加大利纳的圣像。我对小男孩说：「为什么教堂是裂开的！」他回答说：「它只完成了一半。」我觉得我们已经走近了一座富丽堂皇的大厦，里面有许多人在等着我。大厦，就像一个小村庄，被花园、田野、小路和小树林包围着。然而，它似乎很遥远，似乎还没有一个地方是为我而准备的。
I know only that I looked into the chapel with the little Boy and saw the pictures. It was as if I had been caught up in spirit whilst they drew the skin from my wounds, for I felt nothing ; I only saw, after it was over, the shreds of red skin. I beheld the amazement of the men when they found the marks penetrating the flesh, and I saw them scratching behind their ears ! In this confusion of the chapel and the operation, I awoke. The vision of the nuns and the people from the city was obscure. It seemed as if I were informed of an interrogatory to which I was to be subjected. I saw, too, something like a tumult in the city.
我只知道，我和小男孩一起往教堂里看，看到了圣像。当他们从我的伤口上撕下皮肤时，我好像在灵里被吸引去了，因为我什么也感觉不到；在手术结束后，我只看到了红色皮肤的碎片。当那些人发现这些圣伤穿透肉体时，我看到了他们惊讶的表情，我看到他们抓耳挠腮！在教堂和手术的混乱中，我醒来了。修女们和城里人的神视变得模糊不清。我好像被告知要接受一次审讯。我还看到，城里一片混乱。
"The little Boy said: ‘ See, now all that troubled and disquieted thee lasted so short a time, but eternity has no end. Take courage ! A rude trial is in store for thee, but thou wilt bear it well, it will not be so hard as it seems. Many evils can be averted by prayer, be comforted !’ Then he told me to pray in my waking moments at night, for many are in danger of perishing, a great storm threatens. ‘Fear not to say it out boldly and urge every one to pray. ‘"
「小男孩说：『你看，所有让你烦恼和不安的事情都只持续了很短的时间，但永恒是没有尽头的。鼓起勇气吧！你将面临一场残酷的审讯，但你会很好地忍受的，它不会像看上去的那么艰难。许多灾祸都可以通过祈祷避免，请放心吧！』然后他让我在晚上醒来的时候祈祷，因为许多人正处于死亡的危险中，一场大风暴即将来临。『不要害怕，大胆地说出来，并敦促每个人祈祷。』」
A few days later, Sister Emmerich had another vision, that of a young virgin-martyr, and the sight strengthened her for her own approaching struggle :— " I was in prayer. Two unknown men came to me and invited me to go with them to Rome to the place in which the martyrs were tortured. There was to be a great combat that day, some of their friends were to engage in it, and they wanted to see them die for Jesus. I asked them why they exposed themselves. They answered that they were Christians in secret, no one would know them and, as they were relatives, a place was reserved for them that the sight of the martyrs' torments might affright them ; they desired also to strengthen themselves by the sight and to encourage their friends by their presence.
几天后，艾曼丽修女看到了另一个异象，这是一个年轻的殉道贞女的异象，这个异象为艾曼丽自已即将到来的考验增加了勇气：「我在祈祷。两个素不相识的人来找我，邀请我和他们一起去罗马，到殉道者受酷刑的地方。那天要有一场伟大的战斗，这两个人的一些朋友要参与其中，他们想看到他们朋友为耶稣而死。我问他们为什么要暴露自己。他们回答说，他们是秘密的基督徒，没有人会认识他们，因为他们是亲戚，所以为他们保留了一个地方，虽然让他们看到殉道者受折磨的样子会感到害怕；但他们也希望通过看到殉道者的样子来增加自己的勇气，并通过他们的临在来鼓励受难中的朋友们。
They took me to the amphitheatre. Above the inclosure, facing the entrance to the right of the judge's seat, was a gate between two windows through which we entered a large neat apartment in which were thirty good people, old and young, men and women, youths and maidens — all Christians in secret and assembled for the same purpose.
这两个人带我到圆形斗兽场。在圆形斗兽场上方，面对审判席座位右边的入口处，两扇窗户之间有一扇门，穿过这扇门，我们进入了一间宽敞整洁的大房间，里面有三十多位善良的人，有老人，有年轻人，有男人，有女人，有青年，有少女，都是秘密的基督徒，为了同样的目的聚集在这里。
“The judge, a tyrannical old man, waved a staff right and left and at the signal, the subalterns down in the circle began their work. There were about twelve. — To the left before our windows, I saw something like an idol. I knew not what it was, but it made me shudder with horror. On the same side were the prisons. They brought out the martyrs, two by two, driving them forward with iron spears. They were led first before the judge and, after a few words, given over to martyrdom. The whole building was filled with spectators seated in tiers, raging and shouting.
「主审判官是一个暴虐的老头，他左右挥舞着一根手杖，在手杖的信号下，围成一圈的法官们开始了他们的工作。大约有十二个人。在我们窗户前的左边，我看到了一个像偶像一样的东西。我不知道那是什么，但这让我害怕得不寒而栗。同一边是监狱。他们把殉道者带出来，二个二个地，用铁矛驱赶着他们前行。他们首先被带到审判官面前，几句话后，他们就被处死，为主殉道了。整座建筑里坐满了一排排的观众，他们狂怒地吼叫着。
“The first martyr seemed to be about twelve years old, a delicate little girl. The executioner threw her to the ground, crossed her left arm over her breast, and knelt upon it. With a sharp instrument, broad and short, he cut all around the wrist and peeled off the skin as high as the elbow; he did the same to the right arm and then to both feet. I was almost distracted by the horrible treatment of the tender child. I rushed out of the door, crying for mercy, I wanted to share her torments, but the slave pushed me back so violently that I felt it. The child's groans pierced my heart. I offered myself to suffer in her stead, and I had an impression that my turn would soon come. I cannot say what this sight cost me.
「第一位殉道者大约十二岁左右，是个娇弱的小姑娘。刽子手将她摔倒在地，把她的左臂放在她胸前，然后跪在她的左臂上。他用一把又宽又短的利器在手腕上划了一圈，从肘部开始剥皮，右臂和双脚也是如此。稚嫩的孩子受到如此可怕的对待，我几乎失去了理智。我冲出门去，哭着求饶，我想和她一起受苦，但奴隶猛地把我推了回来，我感觉到了。孩子的呻吟声刺痛了我的心。我愿意代替她受苦，我有一种感觉，很快就会轮到我了。我不知道这一幕让我付出了多大的代价。
“Then the slave bound her hands across and it seemed to me that he was about to cut them off. When I went back into the room (it was semi-circular and there were square and also triangular stone seats around it) two good people comforted me. They were the little girl's parents. They said that their child's torments had pierced their soul, but that she had drawn it upon herself by her excessive zeal. It was very sad ; she was their only daughter. She used to go openly to the catacombs to be instructed, and she always spoke out boldly and freely as if courting martyrdom.
「然后奴隶把孩子的双手捆了起来，我觉得他似乎要把她的双手砍下来。当我回到房间时（房间是半圆形的，墙边有方形和三角形的石椅），两个好心人安慰了我。他们是小女孩的父母。他们说孩子的痛苦已经刺穿了他们的灵魂，小女孩由于极大的热忱把这迫害引到自己身上。他们很难过；因她是他们唯一的女儿。小女孩过去常常公开地到地下墓窟接受教导，而且她总是大胆而自由地说出自己的想法，就像在渴望殉道一样。
“Now the two slaves wrapped her up and laid her on the round funeral-pile which stood in the middle of the place, her feet toward the centre ; below was a quantity of little branches which quickly caught fire, and shot up their flames through the wood above. The good people, though resigned, appeared to me quite overcome with grief. A woman among them opened a roll of parchment as long as one's arm, fastened in the middle with a large clasp. They read in an undertone, three or four together, and passed it along from hand to hand. I understood perfectly what they read. They were short sentences, how strong and elevating no words can say. The sense of it was that they who suffer go straight to God out of this miserable world. I was sure that I could never forget the words. I still feel them, though I cannot repeat them, The reader often interrupted herself after a short sentence with the words : ‘What think you now!' The petitions were addressed to God in most energetic language. I, too, looked at the parchment, but I could not read a letter ; it was in red characters.
「现在两个奴隶把她包裹起来，放在场地中间的圆形火葬堆上，她的脚朝向火堆中心；下面是一些很快着火的小树枝，它们的火焰穿过上面的木头。这些善良的人们，虽然顺从天主的旨意，但在我看来，他们非常悲痛。他们中的一位妇女打开了一卷羊皮纸，有手臂那么长，中间用一个大扣子扣着。她们三四个人一起小声地读着，然后把羊皮纸递给另一个人。我完全理解他们读的内容。这些经文很短，但多么有力，多么令人振奋，却无法用言语表达。其中的意思是，受苦的人离开这个悲惨的世界，直接去见天主。我确信我永远不会忘记这些话。虽然我无法重复这些话，但我仍能感受到它们的存在。朗读者常常在简短的句子之后打断自己的话：「你现在怎么想！」这些祈求是用最有力的语言向天主献上的。我也看了看羊皮卷，但我一个字也读不懂，它是用红色字体写的。
“During this martyrdom I was in indescribable anguish, never before had the spectacle affected me so. The little maiden with the skin hanging loose around her arms and lower limbs, was always before me and her groanings pierced my soul. I could not get away, they would not allow us to cross the arena. Many others were afterward martyred. They were pushed from side to side with iron points, struck with heavy clubs and their bones broken, the blood spouting around. At last, there arose wild cries from the spectators and shrieks from one of the tortured. He was the last, and they maltreated him so that he wavered in the Faith.
「在这次殉难的过程中，我陷于无法形容的痛苦之中，从未有过这样的景象如此影响我。手臂和下肢挂着被剥下皮肤的小姑娘，总是出现在我面前，她的呻吟声刺痛了我的灵魂。我不能逃脱，他们不允许我们穿过竞技场。许多其后来的殉道者，他们被铁棍从一边推到另一边，被沉重的棍棒击打，骨头被打断，鲜血喷涌而出。最后，观众们发出了狂野的叫喊声，其中一名受刑者发出了惨叫声，他是最后一个，他们虐待他，使他的信仰动摇了。
He cursed and yelled at the executioners; despair, pain, and rage made him an object frightful to behold. The good people near me were very sorrowful on his account, for they knew that he had to die. When the others were thrown on the funeral-pile, I grieved over this one, I felt that his soul was not in glory. All was now over, and the good people left me. The bodies were not entirely consumed, and a ditch was dug to receive the bones. I saw coming down from the heavens a shining white pyramid of light into which the souls of the martyrs entered with indescribable joy, like happy children. I saw one fall back again into the fire which now disappeared and in its stead, arose a dark, gloomy place where the soul was received by others. It was the fallen martyr. He is not lost, he went to purgatory — this makes me rejoice. Ah ! but, perhaps, he is still there ! I always pray for such poor, abandoned souls.
他咒骂刽子手，朝他们大吼大叫；绝望、痛苦和愤怒使他成为一个可怕的人。我身边的善良的人们都为他的死感到非常悲痛，因为他们知道他必须死。当其他人都被扔在火葬堆的时候，我却为这个人感到悲伤，我觉得他的灵魂没有得到光荣。现在一切都结束了，善良的人们离开了我。尸体并没有完全被烧尽，他们挖了一条沟来收埋骨头。我看到一座闪耀着白光的金字塔从天而降，殉道者的灵魂带着无法形容的喜悦进入其中，就像快乐的孩子一样。我看到有一个人再次掉入火中，火已经消失了，取而代之的是一个黑暗阴森的地方，在那里灵魂被其他人接收。他是那个失落的殉道者。他没有失落灵魂，他去了炼狱——这让我很高兴。啊！但是，也许，他还在那里！我总是为这些可怜的、被遗弃的灵魂祈祷。
" I have a feeling that this martyr was shown me to animate me to patience in my sufferings, and lately I have seen my own skin peeled from my feet and hands. These old Romans must have been of steel. The tormentors were like the spectators, the martyrs like their friends ; but nowadays people are lukewarm, soft, and slothful, they pray to the true God as coldly as the pagans did to their false gods."
「我有一种感觉，天主向我展示这位殉道者是为了激励我在受苦时忍耐，最近我看到自己的脚和手上的皮肤剥落。这些古罗马人一定是铁石心肠，他们坐在观众席上，为刽子手助兴，却没有想到这些殉道者仍然视他们为朋友；但如今的人却冷漠、软弱、懒惰，他们虽向真神祈祷，却像异教徒向他们的假神祈祷一样冷漠。」
From the Feast of the Visitation till the end of July, Sister Emmerich suffered violent inflammation of the chest. A breath of air from the opening of a door, or even a person's approach provoked convulsive coughing; profuse perspiration flowed from her breast, and involuntary dread of coming events pursued her. On the 2d of August, the Pilgrim found her sad and nervous. The next day there arrived in Diilmen a Prussian "Commission of Inquiry," so-called, the Landrath Buenninghausen at its head. The other members were Dr. Rave of Ramsdorf, Dr. Busch of Miinster, the Cure Niesert of Velen, Vicar Roseri of Leyden, and Prof. Roling of Miinster. The Landrath went with the Vicar to announce to Sister Emmerich the “new investigation." She replied that she knew not what they wanted with an investigation since she was ready to give them all the information they might desire, there was nothing which had not already been investigated.
从圣母访亲瞻礼到七月底，艾曼丽修女的胸部一直在发炎。打开门呼吸一口空气，甚至一个人的走近都会引起抽搐性咳嗽；她胸口大汗淋漓，不由自主地对即将发生的事情感到恐惧。8 月 2 日，朝圣者发现她既悲伤又紧张。第二天，一个普鲁士的「调查委员会」到达了杜尔门，以所谓的兰德拉斯．布宁豪森为首。其他成员是拉姆斯多夫的雷夫医生、明斯特的布希医生、维伦的科尔．尼塞特、莱顿的教区代表罗塞里和明斯特的洛林教授。兰德拉斯和教区代表一起向艾曼丽修女宣布「新调查」。艾曼丽回答说，她不知道他们想要调查什么，因为她已向他们提供他们可能想要的所有信息，没有什么是尚未调查过的。
“That is of no account," replied the Landrath. " The investigation has been resolved upon, it must be begun at once ; therefore Miss Emmerich must forthwith allow herself to be removed to the residence of the Councillor Mersmann."
「那没关系，」兰德拉斯回答。「调查已经决定了，必须立即开始；因此，艾曼丽小姐必须立即同意自己被转移到梅尔斯曼议员的住所。」
" If such be the orders of my Ecclesiastical Superiors," she replied, "I willingly submit to all demanded of me. I shall look upon it as the will of God. But I am a religious and although my convent has been suppressed, I am still a religious, and I cannot act independently of my Superiors. The Vicar-General has already proposed a mixed investigation, and if that is what you mean I am ready, for I cannot but desire to see the truth established !"
「如果这就是我的教会长上的命令，」她回答道，「我心甘情愿地服从对我的一切要求。我将＋视之为天主的旨意。但我是一名修道人，虽然我的修道院被关闭，但我仍然是一名修道人，我不能独立于我的长上行事。副主教已经提议进行一项综合调查，如果这就是你们将要进行的调查，那我已经准备好了，因为我只希望看到真相得到证实！」
The Landrath replied: " Ecclesiastical Superiors are in this case of no account ; but here are three Catholic priests." At these words Sister Emmerich turned to the Vicar Roseri and said : " How can you, a priest, appear here if ecclesiastical authority is of no account? You took part in the last investigation in a manner little becoming a priest, and I am deeply grieved to see you here again. I have lost confidence in you." Roseri excused himself, saying that his presence on the occasion alluded to was only accidental ; but that now it was not only permitted by the Vicar.General but even desired, and that he regretted not having with, him the document to that effect (1). Sister Emmerich again declared that she would not consent to her removal, that her physician would not countenance such a step. The Landrath withdrew, declaring that she should be conveyed to Minister whether or not. Dr. Wesener's journal runs as follows: “Aug. 3d —I found the invalid this evening excited, but not disconcerted. She feared only that the old Abbe, who was sick, would be neglected.
兰德拉斯回答说：「教会长上在这种情况下，无关紧要，但这里有三位天主教神父。」听到这些话，艾曼丽修女转向罗塞里神父说：「如果教会当局与此事无关，你作为司铎怎么能出现在这里？你参与了上次的调查，态度很不像个司铎。再次见到你，我很难过。我对你失去了信心。」罗塞里神父为自己辩解，说他在提到的场合出现只是偶然；但现在调查不仅是副主教允许的，甚至是他希望的，罗塞里神父说他后悔没有带那份生效文件（1）。艾曼丽修女再次声明她不会同意将她转移，她的医生不会支持这样的举动。兰德拉斯退了出去，宣布无论怎样都要将她转移到明斯特。韦塞纳医生的日记如下： 8月3日——今晚我发现病人很激动，但并没有惊慌。她只担心生病的老兰伯特神父会无人照顾。
“Wednesday, Aug. 4th — I found her to-day quite resigned. She saw in a vision last night that they would make her fine promises, but that she would be reduced to a most wretched state of weakness in which her confessor would assist her."
「8 月 4 日，星期三——我发现艾曼丽今天很顺从。 她昨晚在神视中看到，他们会向她做出美好的承诺，但她会陷入最悲惨的虚弱状态，而她的神师会在那时帮助她。 」
(1) false statement, as will hereafter be seen in the official acts. Sister Emmerich saw the sad state of the young man's soul, but she could only say that she had no confidence in him.
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(1) 虚假的文件，以后将在官方法案中看到。艾曼丽修女看到了年轻人灵魂的悲哀状态，但只能说，艾曼丽对罗塞里神父没有信心。
The Pilgrim was indignant and tried to avert the persecution from the poor invalid. On Aug. 3d, he wrote her a long letter, begging her to propose him to the Commission as a witness possessed of the necessary qualifications for assisting at the investigation. But when she presented his petition to the Landrath, he declared the Pilgrim "especially excluded" Mr Brentano then appealed to the Chief- President von Vinke, at Munster. who wrote as follows : "In reply to your letter of the 4th inst., which I had the honor to receive, I regret my inability to gratify your desire to take part in the investigation instituted with regard to Miss Emmerich, as I have been expressly enjoined to remove her from her present surroundings. This is so necessary for the attainment of the end in view that I can-not neglect the instructions given me on this point. All, however, that you may wish to communicate to the Committee concerning your personal observations will be received with pleasure.
朝圣者非常愤怒，并试图避免这位可怜的残疾人的迫害。 8 月 3 日，他给艾曼丽写了一封长信，恳求艾曼丽向委员会推荐他作为具有协助调查所需资格的证人。但是，当艾曼丽向兰德拉斯提交朝圣者的请愿时，兰德拉斯宣布朝圣者“特别被排除在外”，然后布伦塔诺先生向明斯特的首席主席冯．文克提出上诉。冯．文克写道：「我很荣幸地收到了您本月 4 日的来信，很遗憾我无法满足您的愿望，参与对艾曼丽小姐的调查，因为他们明确要求我将她从目前的环境中转移走。为了达到目的，我必须这样做，我不能忽视在这一点上给我的指示。但是，如果您想向委员会转达您的个人意见，我们将非常乐意接受。
“l am also inclined to think that your presence would prove unpleasant to Miss Emmerich ; for last winter during a certain medical visit paid her, she showed uneasiness at the mention of your name. We have earnestly recommended to the commissioners to treat her with great consideration and all possible kindness, although the choice made of them is sufficient to assure us that such a suggestion was unnecessary. I shall be most happy to make the acquaintance of M. Savigny's (1) brother-in-law. My approaching visit to Diilmen will, I trust, procure me that pleasure."
明斯特的首席主席冯．文克又说：「我还倾向于认为，你的光临会让艾曼丽小姐感到不快；因为去年冬天，在一次对她的医疗探访中，一提到你的名字，她就显得很不安。我们恳切地建议委员们对她多加关照，尽量善待她，尽管委员们的选择足以使我们确信，这样的建议是不必要的。我很高兴认识萨维尼先生(1)的内兄。 我相信，我即将对迪尔曼的访问会让我感到高兴。」
(1)M, Savigny, a celebrated lawyer, professor at the Berlin University, who had married Mr. Brentano's sister.
注：
(1)M，萨维尼，著名律师，柏林大学教授，娶了布伦塔诺先生的妹妹。
The Pilgrim next applied verbally to the Landrath himself; but here, too, he met a refusal. Disappointed in his hopes of being placed on the commission, he went, in compliance with the invalid's desire, to the paternal mansion of Cardinal Diepenbrock, at Bockholt, to await the result of the investigation.
接下来，朝圣者向兰德拉斯本人提出了口头申请，但同样遭到了拒绝。他被任命为该委员会委员的希望落空了，于是他遵照病人的愿望，到博克霍尔特枢机主教迪彭布罗克的父亲的宅邸，等待调查结果。
Aug. 4th, the Landrath again renewed his persuasions, but Sister Emmerich persisted in her refusal to consent to any change not authorized by her ghostly Superiors. ‘I demand,’ she said, ‘An order from the Vicar- General, officers delegated by him to execute it, and impartial witnesses; then I shall accept whatever happens as coming from God, then I shall have nothing to fear." — The Landrath did not as yet dare to attempt force. His visit was followed by one from Cure Niesert and the Vicar Roseri. The latter began :
8 月 4 日，兰德拉斯再次进行劝说，但艾曼丽修女坚持拒绝接受任何未经她的神长授权的改变。她说: 「我要求，有副主教的命令，有他委派执行命令的官员，有公正的证人；然后，无论发生什么事，我都会认为是天主的旨意，这样我就没有什么可害怕的了。」兰德拉斯还不敢贸然使用武力。在他来访之后，科尔．尼塞特和罗塞里神父也来访了一次。后者开始说：
"Now, tell us how would you like to be treated?” Sister Emmerich answered : “Why do you ask? Have you an order to treat me as I would like ? If so, I ask for priests lawfully commissioned and for two witnesses to draw up an official statement which they will read to me, that I may know what is ascribed to me." “You ought not to complain," said the Cure ; "you are lying there comfortably, you seem to be very well." “How I am," responded the invalid, “God knows !" then turning to Roseri, she said : “I know now through the Dean (Rensing) that you have no authorization from the Vicar-General to be here."
「现在，请告诉我们，你希望得到怎样的待遇？」艾曼丽修女回答说：「你为什么这么问？你有命令要按照我的意愿来对待我吗？若是这样，我要求合法委任的神父，又要求两名证人，起草一份正式声明，向我宣读，使我知道所加给我的是什么。」科尔说，「你不应该抱怨，你躺在那里很舒服，你看起来很健康。」病人回答说，「我怎么样，天主知道！」然后她转向罗塞里神父，说：「我现在通过伦辛总铎知道，您没有获得副主教的授权来这里。」
On Friday, Aug. 6th, Dr. Borges of Miinster, a Protestant, arrived in Diilmen accompained by a mesmerist. As soon as they entered the inn, the former boasted that he would “make short work of the girl, that there would be no shuffling now! — He would have her removed to Berlin by the police without its doing her the least harm." The news of this incident soon spread, and the people became alarmed lest, indeed, force might be used with the poor invalid. The liveliest sympathy was manifested by all. An assembly was held to protest against proceedings so opposed to law and justice and Commissioner Keus selected to draw up resolutions.
8 月 6 日，星期五，明斯特的新教徒博尔赫斯医生在一位催眠师的陪同下抵达杜尔门。他们一走进客栈，博尔赫斯医生就吹嘘说，他将「在短时间内治好这个女孩，这次不会拖泥带水！——他会让警察把她转移到柏林，而不会对她造成丝毫伤害。」这件事的消息很快就传开了，人们开始担心，害怕他们真的会用武力来对付可怜的病人。大家对艾曼丽的同情心是那么强烈，人们举行了一次集会，抗议如此违反法律和正义的诉讼程序，并选出凯斯专员起草决议。
These were placed in the Landrath's hands, who solemnly promised to present them at head-quarters. This restored calm, and the good citizens hoped they had averted the threatened blow. Dr. Borges and his companion went with the Landrath to see Sister Emmerich and urge her once more to consent to her removal. As the doctor held a high position among the Freemasons, his presence was particularly odious to her, and his flattery more disgusting than his abuse. " How unreasonable in you," lie said jeeringly, “to reject the fine offer made you of being surrounded by the most distinguished men, and of receiving their attentions in a place far preferable to this ! "
这些信交给了兰德拉斯，他郑重承诺将把决议送到总部。这才恢复了平静，善良的市民希望他们已经避免了一场威胁性的打击。博尔赫斯医生和他的同伴与兰德拉斯一起去见艾曼丽修女，并再次劝她同意搬走。由于博尔赫斯医生在共济会中身居高位，他的出现让艾曼丽修女格外厌恶，他的奉承比辱骂更令人作呕。扯谎者嘲讽地说，「你真是不可理喻，人家向你提出这样的好提议，使你与最有名望的人为邻，在一个比这里更合适的地方接受他们的照顾！」
“The good intentions of these gentlemen," replied Sister Emmerich, "I leave to God. I wish them every blessing, although I have not as yet profited by their good will. If you wish merely to discover the truth, you can examine me here in this room ; but I know there is no question for you of the truth, which you could easily discover. If you want the truth, why not seek it here by me ? "- As both gentlemen asked what they could do for her during the investigation, she replied : "I demand, being seriously ill, the presence of my physician and confessor, a companion to attend to me, and two priests and two laics as witnesses ; nevertheless, I again protest that I will leave this house only by force." Then she remonstrated against Dr. Rave's having any share in the matter, since, besides his official report in February, he had published another and very different account greatly prejudicial to her. The result of the remonstrance we shall see later on. The mesmerist's discreet and reserved behavior during the interview made it evident that he saw not in Sister Emmerich any marks by which to recognize a medium (1).
艾曼丽修女回答说：「这些先生们的好意，我交给了天主。我祝愿他们一切顺利，尽管我还没有从他们的善意中获益。如果您只想发现真相，您可以在这个房间里检查我；但我知道，对您来说，很容易发现真理。如果你们想知道真相，为什么不在我这里寻找呢？」当两位先生问:在调查期间他们能为她做些什么时，艾曼丽回答说：「我身患重病，我要求有我的医生和神师在场，有一名陪伴我的人，还有两名神父和两名平信徒作为证人；不过，我再一次声明，除非用武力，我是不会离开这所房子的。」然后，她恳求雷夫医生不要插手此事，因为除了二月份的正式报告外，雷夫医生还发表了另一份对她非常不利的截然不同的报告。我们稍后就会看到抗议的结果。催眠师在面谈过程中表现得谨慎而拘谨，显然他在艾曼丽修女身上看不出任何可以识别巫术的标记(1)。
(1) The Landrath himself declared : "There can be no question of mesmerism in Sister Emmerich's case, I may say once for all that I have remarked that she holds it *pd its adherents, individually and collectively, in abhorrence."
(1) 兰德拉斯本人宣称：「在艾曼丽修女的案件中，不存在催眠术的问题，我可以明确地说，她对催眠术的追随者，无论是个人还是集体，都深恶痛绝。 」
Dr. Wesener says: "In the morning I found the invalid tolerably strong, but still opposed to the idea of moving. Dr. Borges tried to persuade me to consent, but when I told him Sister Emmerich was not in a condition to be moved he grew angry, and threatened force. Toward midnight, they did, indeed, intend to remove her, but as there were some assemblies going on, the execution of their scheme was deferred.'' —
韦塞纳医生说：「早上我发现病人身体还算强壮，但还是反对转移。博尔赫斯医生试图说服我同意，但当我告诉他艾曼丽修女的身体状况不适合迁移时，他生气了，并威胁要使用武力。到了午夜，他们确实打算将她搬走，但由于有一些集会正在进行，他们的计划被推迟了。」
Mr. von Schilgen, an eye-witness, gives the following account of this nocturnal escapade : " Many of the citizen and myself had made use of the Landrath's acceptance of our protest to calm the people and persuade them that force would not be resorted to. I was so fully convinced of the truth of what I said that I went quietly to rest ; but just about midnight, I was aroused by one of the police who came with orders to assemble his comrades, one of whom lodged in my house. I was, of course, surprised. I ran to the invalid's house where I found quite a number collected awaiting the issue of the affair. The police were in motion.
目击证人冯席尔根先生对这次夜间越轨行为作了如下描述：「许多公民和我自己都利用兰德拉斯接受了我们的抗议来安抚民众，他们不会诉诸武力。我完全相信我所说的话是真的，于是就安静地去休息了；但就在午夜时分，我被一名警察叫醒了，他奉命来召集他的同伴，其中一名就住在我家里……我当然大吃一惊。我跑到病人的家里，发现很多人都聚集在那里等待事态的发展。警察正在行动。
At midnight, Dr. Borges, Landrath Bcenninghausen, and Dr. Busch made their appearance. After rapping for some time at the door leading to Sister Emmerich's lodgings and receiving no answer, they went around to the kitchen and made Mr. Limberg show them the front room on the lower floor; but this they did only to ward off suspicion. They declared it suited to their purpose and went away leaving the owner, as well as the assembled crowd, under the impression that they would hold the investigation there. The people, however, did not disperse till daylight called them to their various occupations. It was rumored that at eight o'clock the next day, the invalid would be carried off by- force. To be able to give an exact account of the affair, if it really happened, I went half after seven o'clock to Sister Emmerich's.
午夜时分，博尔赫斯医生、兰德拉斯·布森宁豪森和布西医生出现了。 他们在通往艾曼丽修女住所的门口敲了一会儿，没有人回答，便绕到厨房，让林堡先生带他们看楼下的前室。但他们这样做只是为了避免怀疑。他们声称这符合他们的目的，然后就离开了，留下屋主和聚集的人群，人们以为他们会在那里进行调查。然而，直到天亮，人们才各自散去。有传言说，第二天八点，病人就会被强行带走。如果真的发生了这样的事情，为了能够准确地描述事情的经过，我就在七点半到艾曼丽修女家去。
After the usual salutations, I inquired upon what she had resolved. She answered : ‘I am extremely embarrassed. The Landrath has appealed to the Dean to use his influence to gain my consent to being removed and to submit to a new investigation. He came to see me for that purpose (1). I know not what I shall do !' I remarked that something must be resolved upon, when she cried : ‘No ! never will I consent to it ! I persist in my refusal!’ and she implored me to stay and get the police to protect her. Just at this moment the Landrath entered and renewed his entreaties. I interfered and reminded him of the protest of the preceding evening, but all to no purpose.
在例行的问候之后，我询问艾曼丽做出了什么决定。她回答说：「这让我非常尴尬。因兰德拉斯已经请求伦辛总铎利用他的影响力来获得我的同意，将我转移并接受新的调查。伦辛总铎就是为了这个目的来见我的（1）。 我不知道该怎么办！」我说你必须下定决心，艾曼丽却哭着说：「不！我决不同意！我坚决拒绝！」，她恳求我留下来，让警察来保护她。就在这个时候，兰德拉斯进走了进来，他再次恳求我，要求转移艾曼丽。我打断了他的话，并提醒他在前一天晚上的抗议，但都无济于事。
He raised her by the shoulders himself, wrapped the bedclothes around her, and a nurse, whom he had brought with him, took her by the feet ; thus they carried her down stairs, laid her upon a litter there in readiness, and four of the police bore her away to the house of the Councillor Mersmann, escorted by the Prefect and his men. There was no disturbance, the lookers-on expressing their sympathy only by sobs and tears. I noticed, to my satisfaction, that at the moment they wrapped her in the bed-coverings she fell into the cataleptic state and was, consequently, unconscious of what was being done to her (2)."
兰德拉斯亲手架起艾曼丽的肩膀，用床单裹住艾曼丽，他带来的一名护士抬着艾曼丽的脚，他们就这样把她抬下了楼，把她放在准备好的担架上，四名警察把她抬到了梅尔斯曼议员家里，由省长和兰德拉斯的手下护送。现场没有发生任何骚动，旁观者只能用抽泣和泪水来表达他们的同情。我欣慰地注意到，在他们将她裹在床单中的那一刻，她陷入了昏睡状态，因此，对她所遭受的一切毫无知觉。（2）」
(1) Dean Reusing told her that the Landrath had complained bitterly that he would lose his position if she did not yield to their demands.— (Pilgrim's Notes)-
(2) In Sept., 1859, the author visited the abode of Sister Emmerich at Dulmen, and found the marks of the government seals still visible on the doors of the house. Father Limberg's brother, the owner, was living. He told him that, when the poor Sister was carried off, the cows in the adjoining stable bellowed piteouslv.
(1)伦辛总铎告诉艾曼丽，兰德拉斯曾苦苦抱怨说，如果艾曼丽不屈从于他们的要求，兰德拉斯将失去他的职位。-（朝圣者笔记）-
(2) 1859 年 9 月，作者访问了位于杜尔门的艾曼丽修女的住所，发现房屋门上仍可见政府封印的痕迹。林堡神父的兄弟，也就是屋主，还活着。他告诉作者，当可怜的修女被抬走时，隔壁马厩里的奶牛发出凄厉的吼叫声。
We shall now subjoin Sister Emmerich's own account: — " The afternoon preceding my removal, being fully awake, I saw in vision all that was to take place the following day. The pain it caused deprived me of speech. Dean Rensing wanted me to submit freely, and the Landrath told me that he would lose his position if I did not ; but I still refused. When he seized me by the shoulders, my spirit was caught up out of this miserable world into a vision of my youth which I had often had before my entrance into the cloister, and I remained perfectly absorbed until the next day. When I awoke and found myself in a strange house, I thought it all a dream. The whole time of my captivity, I was in a state of mental transport unaccountable to myself. I was frequently pray, and again full of pity for the blind investigators for whom I prayed, I offered all that I endured for the poor souls in purgatory, begging them to pray for my persecutors.
现在我们来补充一下艾曼丽修女自己的叙述：「在我被带走之前的那个下午，我完全清醒，我在神视中看到了第二天将要发生的一切。神视给我带来的痛苦使我无法说话。伦辛总铎希望我心甘情愿地服从，兰德拉斯告诉我，如果我不服从，他就会失去他的职位；但我仍然拒绝。当他抓住我的肩膀时，我的灵魂从这个悲惨的世界中被拉出来，进入了我年轻时进修道院之前经常有的神视中，直到第二天我都完全沉浸其中。当我醒来发现自己在一个陌生的房子里时，我以为这是一场梦。在我被囚禁的整个过程中，我都处于一种自己也无法解释的精神恍惚状态。我不停的祈祷，再次对盲目的调查员充满怜悯並为之祈祷，我为炼狱中的可怜灵魂奉献了我所忍受的一切，恳求炼灵们为迫害我的人祈祷。
I often went down into purgatory and I saw that my sufferings were like those of the holy souls. The more violent my persecutors were, the calmer and even the more contented was I, which infuriated the Landrath. God kept me from making any outward demonstration, my graces were silent ones. Without the blessing of a priest or anything holy, I received from God a strength hitherto unknown, as well as every word that I had to say. I had nothing prepared. When my persecutors attacked me on one side, questioning and abusing, I saw on the other a radiant form pouring outstrength and grace upon me. He dictated every word that I should say, short, precise, and mild, and I was full of pity. But if I spoke any words of my own, I perceived a great difference; it was another voice, rough, hard, and shrill."
我经常下到炼狱里，我看到我的痛苦就像圣炼灵的痛苦一样。迫害我的人越凶残，我就越平静，甚至越满足，这激怒了兰德拉斯。天主阻止我做出任何外在的表现，我的恩宠是静默的。在没有神父或任何圣物的祝福下，我从天主那里获得了前所未有的力量，以及我要说的每一句话。我什么准备都没有。当迫害我的一方攻击我、质问我、辱骂我的时候，我看到另一方，有一个光芒四射的人在向我倾注力量和恩宠。天主口授了我要说的每一个字，简短、准确、温和，让我对迫害我的人充满了怜悯。但是，如果我说了我自己的话，我就会感觉到很大的不同；那是另一种声音，粗暴、生硬、刺耳。」
On the Feast of St. Lawrence, I saw his martyrdom. I saw also the Assumption of Mary, and on St. Anne's day, my mother's patroness (1), I was taken up to her in her blessed abode. I wanted to stay with her, but she consoled me, saying : ‘Although many evils are before thee, yet terrible ones have been averted from thee by prayer.' Then she pointed out many places in which they prayed for me. ‘The heaviest trials thou hast well sustained, but thou hast still much to suffer and accomplish.’
在圣老楞佐瞻礼上，我亲眼目睹了圣人的殉难。我还看到了圣母升天，並且在圣亚纳（我母亲的主保）的瞻礼(1)，我被带到圣母的圣居所。我想和圣母呆在一起，但她安慰我说：「虽然有许多祸患在你面前，但通过祈祷，一些可怕的祸患已经离开了你。」然后圣母指出许多她们为我祈祷的地方。「你经受住了最严峻的考验，但你还有很多苦要受，还有很多事要完成。」
(1) The Feast of St. Anne falls on August 16th In the Calendar of Munster.
(1) 圣亚纳庆节是在明斯特日历中的 8 月 16 日。
" On the Feast of my Holy Founder, I had a clear view of the position I should have been in, if my enemies' desires had been fulfilled. Some of them were fully confident that, in my person, they had all Catholics in their power, and were about to disgrace them. I saw some ecclesiastics even animated by very evil dispositions. I saw myself in a deep, dark hole, and I thought I was never more to come out ; but, day by day, I rose higher and higher and the light increased. My persecutors, on the contrary, were buried deeper and deeper in darkness; they grew uncertain as to how they should act, struck against one another, and finally, sank to the bottom. St. Augustine, whom I invoked, stood by my bed on his feast-day, and confounded my cruel tormentors. St. John also came to me on his feast and announced my speedy deliverance.
「在我的神圣修院创始人（圣奥斯定）的瞻礼上，我清楚地看到，如果我的敌人的愿望得以实现，我本应处于何种境地。他们中的一些人深信，只要有我在，他们就能控制所有天主教徒，并将使他们蒙羞。我看到一些神职人员甚至被非常邪恶的倾向所驱使。我看到自己在一个很深的黑洞里，我以为我再也出不来了；但是，一天又一天，我越来越升高，光明渐增。相反，我的迫害者越来越深地陷入在黑暗中；他们越来越不知道自己该如何行动，他们互相攻击，最后沉入谷底。我呼求圣奥斯定，他在他的瞻礼那天站在我的床边，让残酷折磨我的人困惑。圣若望也在他的瞻礼日来看我，宣布我很快就得到解救。
“When my persecutors came, I always saw the wicked enemy standing by. He looked like an assemblage of all the bad spirits : some laughing, weeping, cursing, playing the hypocrite ; some lying, intriguing, making mischief. It was the demon of secret societies.
「当迫害我的人来的时候，我总是看到邪恶的仇敌站在他们旁边。邪恶的仇敌看起来像是一群恶灵的集合体：有的笑、有的哭、有的骂、有的装伪君子；有的撒谎，有的耍诡计，搞恶作剧。邪恶的仇敌是秘密社团的恶魔。
In this vision my guide led me by the hand like a child. He lifted me out of the window of my father's cottage, led me over the meadow, across the marsh, and through the grove. We went on a long, perilous journey over desert countries, till we reached a steep mountain up which he had to draw me after him. It was strange to think myself a child, although so old ! When we gained the summit, he said : ' See, if you had not been a child, I should never have been able to get you up here. Now, look back and see what dangers you have escaped, thanks to the providence of God!’
「在这个神视中，护守天神牵着我的手，就像牵着一个孩子。他把我从父亲小屋的窗户里抱出来，带我越过草地，穿过沼泽，穿过树林。我们踏上了漫长而艰险的旅程，越过沙漠国家，直到我们到达一座陡峭的山峰，他必须拉着我跟在他后面。我觉得很奇怪，自己虽然这么大了，却还是个孩子！当我们到达山顶时，他说：「看，如果你不是个孩子，我就不可能把你带到这里来。现在，回头看看，感谢天主的眷顾，你躲过了多少危险! 」
圣经:我实在告诉你们：你们若不变成如同小孩一样，你们决不能进天国。
— I did so and I saw the road behind us full of pictures of different kinds. They represented the various snares of sin, and I comprehended how wonderfully I had been preserved by the watchfulness of my angel. What on the way had appeared to me simply as difficulties, I now saw under human forms as temptations to sin. I saw all kinds of troubles which, thanks to the goodness of God ! I had escaped. I saw people blindfolded. This signified interior blindness. They walked safely on the edge of the abyss for a time, but at last they fell in. I saw many whose safety I had procured. The sight of these dangers filled me with alarm, and I knew not how I had escaped.
我照他说地做了，我看到我们身后的路上画满了各种不同的图画。它们代表了罪恶的各种陷阱，我明白了，护守天神的警觉是多么奇妙的保护了我。在路上，我看到的只是困难，而现在我看到的是以人的外表出现的对罪的诱惑。我看到了各种各样的烦恼，感谢天主的仁慈，我逃脱了这些诱惑。我看到人们被蒙住了眼睛。这意味着内心的盲目。他们在深渊的边缘安全地走了一段时间，但最终还是掉了下去。我看到了许多因我的祈祷已获得了安全的人。这些危险的景象令我惊恐万分，我不知道自己是怎么逃出来的。
" When my angel had pointed all this out to me, he went on a few steps ahead, and I at once became so weak and feeble that I began to stagger like a child not yet able to walk alone, to cry and lament like a little infant. Then my guide came back and gave me his hand with the words : ‘See, how weak thou art when I do not lead thee ! See what need thou hast of a guide in order to pass over such dangers ! '
「当护守天神把这一切指给我看时，他向前又走了几步，我立刻变得虚弱无力，开始蹒跚，像一个还不能独自行走的孩子，像一个小婴儿一样哭泣。这时，护守天神回来了，拉着我的手说：『看，我不带领你时，你是多么软弱！你看，你多么需要一个向导，才能渡过这样的危险！』
“Then we went to the opposite side of the mountain and descended, crossing a beautiful meadow full of red, white, and yellow flowers, so thickly crowded that I was in dread of crushing them. There were, too, some rows of apple trees in blossom and different other trees. Leaving the meadow, we came to a dark road with high hedges on either side. It was muddy and rough ; but I passed over gaily, holding my guide's hand. I did not even touch the muddy path, I only skimmed above it. Then we came to another mountain pleasant to look upon, tolerably high, and covered with shining pebbles. From the top I cast a glance back upon the perilous road, and my guide said that the last road, so pleasant with its flowers and fruits, was typical of spiritual consolations and the manifold action of grace in the soul of man after resisting temptation.
「然后，我们走到山的另一边，下山，穿过一片美丽的草地，草地上开满红的、白的、黄的花，如此茂密，我害怕把花踩碎了。草地上还有几排盛开的苹果树和其他不同的树木。离开草地，我们来到一条漆黑的小路上，路的两边都有高高的树篱。路上泥泞且崎岖不平；但我握着护守天神的手，欢快地走了过去。我甚至没有碰到泥泞的小路，我只是在上面轻轻地掠过。然后，我们来到另一座山，山很高，上面布满了闪闪发光的鹅卵石，令人赏心悦目。从山顶上，回望那条危险的路，护守天神说，最后一条路上的鲜花和果实如此怡人，娇艳欲滴，是人类在战胜诱惑之后，(天主赐给得胜之人的)精神上的慰藉，也是人在抵抗诱惑后心灵上的奇妙的恩宠。
My fear of walking on the flowers signified scruple and false conscience. A childlike spirit abandoned to God, walks over all the flowers in the world, without thinking whether it bruises them or not : and, indeed, it does them no harm. I said to him that we must have been a whole year on the journey, it seemed to me so long. But he replied: ‘To make the journey thou seest, ten years would be needed !’ —
我害怕走在花丛中，这表明我有顾虑和虚假的良心。一个在天主前无拘无束的童心，踏遍了世界上所有的花朵，也不会考虑是否会伤到它们：事实上，这不会对它们有任何伤害。我对护守天神说，我们一定走了整整一年的路，在我看来是那么漫长。但他回答说：『要走完你看到的这段路，需要十年！』
“Then I turned to the other side to look at the road that lay before me. It was very short. At the end of it, only a little distance from where I stood, I saw the Heavenly Jerusalem. The gloomy, perilous road of life lay behind me, and before me only a little way off was the magnificent city of God shining in the blue heavens. The plain I still had to cross was narrow and beyond it was a road from which, right and left, branched by-paths in different directions, but which finally returned to the main road. By following them the journey would be considerably lengthened. They did not seem so very dangerous, though one might easily stumble on them. I gazed with joy into the Heavenly Jerusalem, which appeared much larger and nearer than it had ever done before.
「然后，我转向另一边，看看我眼前的道路。这条路很短。在路的尽头，离我站立的地方只有一小段距离，我看到了天上的耶路撒冷。那灰暗、危险的人生道路已经在我身后，而在我面前，离我不远的地方，就是那在蔚蓝的天空中闪闪发光的宏伟的天主之城。我还要穿过的平原很窄，平原那边有一条大路，从这条路上，左右两边有不同方向的小路，但最后都回到了大路上。沿着这些小路走，路程会大大延长。虽然很容易被绊倒，但似乎并不十分危险。我欣喜地凝视着天上的耶路撒冷，它比以前显得更大更近了。」
Then my guide took me to a path that led down the mountain, and I felt that danger threatened. I saw the Pilgrim in the distance. He seemed to be carrying something away, and I was eager to go to him. But my guide took me into a little cottage where the two religious, whom I know, prepared a bed and put me into it. I was again a little nun and I slept peaceably in uninterrupted contemplation of the Heavenly Jerusalem until I awoke. On the journey, I gave my hand at several different times to people whom I met, and made them travel part of the way with me.
然后，护守天神带我到了一条通往山下的小路上，我感受到危险的威胁。我在远处看到了朝圣者。他似乎在搬运什么东西，我很想去找他。但护守天神带我进了一间小木屋，在那里，我认识的两位修女为我准备了一张床，让我睡在上面。我又成为了一位小修女，平静地躺下，在不间断的默想天上的耶路撒冷中安然入睡，直到醒来。在旅途中，我多次向遇到的人伸出援手，并让他们与我同行。
" The Heavenly Jerusalem I saw like a glittering, transparent, golden city in the blue sky, supported by no earthly foundations, with walls and gates through which I could see far, far beyond. The view was rather the instantaneous perception of a whole than of a succession of parts such as I have here been obliged to present. It had numerous streets, palaces, and squares, all peopled by human apparitions of different races, ranks, and hierarchies. I distinguished whole classes and bodies bound together by ties of mutual dependence. The more I gazed, the more glorious and magnificent did it become.
「我看到天上的耶路撒冷就像蓝天上一座闪闪发光、透明的金色城市，没有任何地上的支柱做支撑，有城墙和城门，透过透明的城墙，我可以看到很远很远的地方。我看到的是一个整体，而不是我在这里不得不介绍的一连串的部分。圣城里有无数的街道、宫殿和广场，所有这些地方都住着不同种族、等级和阶层的人类灵魂。我分辨出了由相互依存的纽带而联系在一起的各个阶层和团体。我越是注视，圣城越是辉煌壮丽。
The figures I saw were all colorless and shining, but they were distinguished from one another by the form of their raiment and by various other signs, sceptres, crowns, garlands, croziers, crosses, instruments of martyrdom, etc. In the centre arose a tree, upon whose branches, as if on seats, appeared figures still more resplendent. This tree extended its branches like the fibres of a leaf, swelling out as it rose. The upper figures were more magnificent than those below ; they were in an attitude of adoration. Highest of all were holy old men. Crowning the summit was a globe representing the world surmounted by a cross. The Mother of God was there, more splendid than usual, It is all inexpressible ! During this vision I slept in the little cottage, until I again awoke in time,"
我看到的人物都是透明的、闪闪发光的，使他们彼此区分开来的是他们身上的服饰和其他各种标志：权杖、皇冠、花环、手杖、十字架、殉难刑具等等。圣城中央矗立着一颗树，树的枝条仿佛是座位，其上浮现出更加璀璨的身影。这棵树的树枝像树叶的纤维一样伸展开来，随着树枝的上升而扩展。上面的人物比下面的人物更加壮观，他们做着朝拜的姿态。最高处的是位圣洁的老人。最高的顶端是一个代表世界的地球仪，上面有一个十字架，代表着十字架战胜了世界。圣母玛利亚也在那里，她比平时更加光辉！在这个异象中，我在小屋里睡了一觉，直到我及时醒来。」
