CHAPTER XXXIX.

Close of the Ecclesiastical Year

第三十九章

教会礼仪年的结束

Sister Emmerich now resumed her spiritual labors with unabated courage. “Thou art lying there persecuted,” said her Divine Spouse to her, “that minds at variance may be united, that many may see their errors." The work begun had to be perfectly fulfilled, and for this end she received all that assistance which a true child of Holy Church derives from the communion of saints; the help of the blessed, the fruits of her own good works, and the prayers and protection of the souls in purgatory.

现在，艾曼丽修女以丝毫不减的勇气继续着她的属灵工作，她的神圣净配对她说，「你躺在那里遭受迫害，是为了使思想不同的人团结起来，使许多人看到他们的错误。」已经开始的工作必须完美的完成，为此目的，她–圣教会真正的子女–从诸圣相通中得到一切的帮助；教会祝福的帮助、她自己善行的果实，以及炼狱中灵魂的祈祷和保护。 

Speaking once of her suffering life, she said : “I can see no end to my pains, they daily become greater ; they increase like the branches of a tree which multiply in proportion as they are pruned. I have often thought over them, as a child in the fields, a religious in the convent garden, and in my own interior ; they will keep on increasing to the end. I have left much behind me, but I grieve that many means of shunning evil have been neglected, many graces rendered useless.

有一次，艾曼丽修女谈到她的苦难生活时，她说：「我的痛苦看不到尽头，它们每天都在增加；它们像树枝一样生长，越修剪，长得就越快。当我还是田野里的孩子、修道院花园里的修女时，以及在我自己的内心世界里，我常常思考这些痛苦：它们将持续增加直到我生命的最后。我已将许多痛苦抛到脑后，但我感到悲伤的是，许多可以避免邪恶的方法被忽视了，许多恩宠被浪费了。

It has often been shown me that great harm comes from making small account of the gifts granted me, and from not recording my visions, which show the hidden links of many things. It has often distressed me; but it is a consolation to think that it is not my own fault. I have also greatly relaxed through condescension."

天主常常启示我，轻视天主赐予我的恩赐，以及没有记录下我的异象，这会带来巨大的伤害，这些异象揭示了许多事物之间隐藏的联系。这常常使我很苦恼；但想到这不是我自己的过错时，就令我感到安慰。我也因谦卑而宽慰了很多。」   

Her visions now turned upon the views and plots of her enemies. She saw their underhand dealings and their sympathy with the tendencies of the period, tendencies hostile to the Church and Christianity ; against them were directed her combat of suffering and prayer. “I beard terrible threats that I was to be carried off again, whether I would or not. A man stood before me and said : ‘Dead or alive, she must go!' — I cast myself into my Saviour's arms, crying to him piteously.

艾曼丽修女的神视现在转向了她的敌人的观点和阴谋。她看到了他们的卑鄙交易和他们对那个时代潮流的认同，对圣教会和基督宗教的敌视的倾向，她以受苦和祈祷来对抗敌人。「我受到可怕的威胁，我将再次被带走，无论我是否愿意。一个男人站在我面前说：『不管是死是活，她都必须被我们带走！』——我将自己投入救主的怀抱，向祂哭诉。

Then came other pictures : I beheld an informer gathering up all that was said in the little town ; I saw people coming and going, tormenting me with questions and raillery ; cunning visitors, and false friends near me who did me much harm. These were true torments. The priests I saw in deep sleep ; whatever they did appeared like a spider's web.

接着又出现了其他画面：我看到一个告密者收集了小镇上所有的闲言碎语；我看见人们来来往往，用问题和嘲弄来折磨我；我看见狡猾的访客，以及在我身边给我带来很大伤害的假朋友。这些都是真正的折磨。我看见司铎们都沉睡了，他们所做的一切都像蜘蛛网一样。

I saw on all sides increasing malice, cunning, and violence which, at last, frustrated their own designs, failed in their ends, and completely baffled one another. In terror I beheld myself abandoned by all my friends. Then I saw a troop of men in a distant meadow, about a hundred of them with a leader, and I thought to myself that this must be the place in which Our Lord once fed the seven thousand people.

我看到四面八方的恶意，狡诈和暴力都在不断地增加，最终，他们受挫于自己的计划，以失败告终，使彼此完全陷入困惑。我在恐惧中看到自己被我所有的朋友抛弃了。然后，我看见一群人在远处的草地上，大约有一百人和一个领袖，我心想，这一定是我们的主曾经喂饱七千人的地方。

Our Lord came to meet me. With Him were all His disciples from among whom He chose twelve. I saw Him looking from one to another. I recognized them all, the old men full of simplicity, the young robust and sun-burnt. He sent them off in all directions, following them in spirit to distant nations. I thought, ‘Ah ! what can such a handful do among such multitudes !’

我们的主来见我。与祂同来的，都是祂的门徒，祂从他们中拣选了十二宗徒。我看到祂挨个看着他们。我认出了他们所有人，年长的充满淳朴，年轻的健壮，被太阳晒得黝黑。主差遣他们往各处去，在精神上跟随他们到遥远的国家。我想:『啊！这么少的一些人在芸芸众生中能做什么呢？』

— The Lord answered : ‘Their voice sounds far and near. So also in these days many are sent. Whoever they may be, men or women, they can do the same. Behold to what multitudes these twelve have borne salvation ! They whom I send in your day will do the same, no matter how poor or despised they may be !' — I felt that this vision was for my encouragement. "

——主回答说：『他们的声音传向四面八方。如今，也有许多人被派遣。不管他们是谁，男人或女人，他们都可以做同样的事情。看哪，这十二个人救了多少人的灵魂！我在你们的时代所差遣的人，也必照样行，无论他们有多么贫穷，或多么被别人看不起！』 ——我觉得这个异象是对我的鼓励。」 

If she saw in spirit a new attack, she strengthened herself for it by prayer. " What can creatures do to me ?” she said. “If they want to tear this body to pieces, I shall deliver it up for Thee, my Saviour ! Lord, I am Thy hand-maid !" — Then she had a vision in which was shown her how much good she could do in her state of abandonment.

如果艾曼丽修女在神魂里看到新的攻击，她会通过祈祷来增强自己的力量。「受造物能对我做什么？」她说，「如果他们想把我的身体撕成碎片，我会把碎片交给祢，我的救主！主啊，我是祢的婢女！」——接着，她在一个神视中看到，在她被遗弃的状态下，她能做多少善事。

— "I found myself in a vast region belonging not to earth. The ground which bore me, or over which I floated, was like a veil of gauze, and below I saw the earth dark as night with pictures here and there. Around where I stood were troops of translucent spirits ranged in choirs ; they were not the saints, but praying souls, who offered petitions from below and received gifts from on high.

——「我发现自己身处一个不属于地球的广袤地域。承载我的，或者说我在它上面漂浮的地面，就像一层薄纱，下面的地球像黑夜一样漆黑，到处都是画面。在我所站的地方，周围有一群半透明的灵魂组成的歌咏团；他们不是圣徒，而是祈祷的灵魂，他们为下界献上祈求，并从上天接受恩赐。

They prayed themselves; they offered the prayers of others : they implored the assistance of the more elevated choirs who answered such requests, sending more or less help, coming and going in the light. These elevated choirs were the saints. They that surrounded me seemed to be souls whom the Lord willed should see the dangers that menaced the earth and offer prayers to avert them.

他们为自已祈祷，他们也为他人祈祷；他们恳求更高层次的歌咏团提供帮助，更高层的歌咏团回应了他们的请求，或多或少地提供了帮助，他们在光明中来来往往。这些高层次歌咏团是圣徒。那些围绕在我周围的这些灵魂似乎都是天主旨意让他们看到地球面临的危险、并以祈祷避免这些危险的灵魂。 

All professions, all stations in life, seemed to have their praying souls, who exercised a most beneficent influence. I prayed, too, for I saw innumerable miseries. God sent help by His saints and the effect was instantaneous — obstacles opposed to evil ; undertakings turning out well, though apparently by chance; changes wrought in souls, etc. ; the dying converted and admitted to the Sacraments ; people in danger on land and water — all saved by prayer.

生活中各行各业似乎都有祈祷的灵魂，他们发挥着最有益的影响。我也祈祷，因为我看到了无数的苦难。天主派祂的圣徒来帮助，效果是立竿见影的----对抗邪恶的障碍；祈祷的事业显有成效，虽然表面上看是偶然的；灵魂发生了转化；临终者悔改并接受圣事；人们在陆地和水上处于危险之中——所有这些都因祈祷而得救。

I saw what might prove fatal to certain individuals suddenly snatched out of their path, and all by the power of prayer. I adored the justice of God !”

我看到对某些人来说可能致命的东西，突然从他们的人生道路上消失了，而这一切都是靠祈祷的力量。我朝拜天主的公义！」

She beheld her own position under the figure of a lamb. — " I saw a broad country spreading out before me like a map, with forests and meadows, flocks and shepherds, Just in front of me was a shepherd with a numerous flock of sheep, and behind them came the shepherd-boys.

艾曼丽修女在一只羔羊的形象下看清了自已的处境——「我看到一个广阔的国家像地图一样在我面前展开，有森林和草地，有许多羊群和众多牧人，就在我面前有一个牧羊人，带着无数的羊群，在羊群后面跟着一个牧童。

The former discharged his duties a little carelessly, but the latter were more active. The flock was in good condition. There was one lamb, sleeker and fatter than the others; there was something remarkable about it, the sheep pressed around it.

牧羊人履行职责有些漫不经心，但牧童更积极主动。羊群状况良好。有一只羔羊，比其他的更光滑、更肥。它有些卓越的气质，其他羊紧紧地围着它。 

They passed a clump of high trees among which lay a fierce wolf and a second one a little further on ; they were wolves, and yet they were like men too. The wolves appeared to understand each other; they often ran together and lay in wait for the lamb. I trembled for the poor little thing, and I could not understand how the shepherd could be so negligent.

羊群经过一丛高大的丛林，其中趴着一只凶猛的狼，还有另一只狼在更远的地方趴着。他们是狼，但他们也长得像人。狼群似乎互相明白对方。他们经常一起奔跑，埋伏等待羔羊。我为这可怜的小羊担忧，我不明白牧羊人怎么会如此疏忽大意。

One of the boys seemed attentive to it, but he could not do much for it, although he was faithful to the portion of the flock intrusted to him. Several times when the wolves attempted to seize it the sheep gathered bleating around it. To my amazement the shepherd made no effort to protect it. Everything seemed to be against it.

其中一个牧童似乎很关心那小羊，但他对此无能为力，尽管他忠于托付给他的那部分羊群。有几次，当狼试图抓住那羔羊时，羊群聚集在那羔羊周围咩咩地叫着。令我惊讶的是，牧羊人没有努力保护这羔羊。一切似乎都在反对这羔羊。

It was in an exposed position, and once the wolves were on the point of carrying it off; again they caught it by the throat, tore off a piece of its flesh, and were about to strangle it, when the others ran to the rescue. The pity I felt made me understand that there was question of myself Suddenly there came a man from above, the wolves fled, and I saw that I had the man's bones by me (1).

那羔羊处于暴露的位置，有一次，狼群差点儿把它叼走；另一次，狼群掐住它的喉咙，撕下它的一块肉，正要咬死它，这时，其他羊跑去救援。我感同身受，明白了这异象是指我自己遇到的问题。突然，从上面来了一个人，狼群逃走了，我看到我身边有那个人的圣髑。

I wondered that his body was in one place, his spirit in another. Then the shepherd's boy came up and brought the lamb back." The lamb, so little cared for by the shepherds, was helped by some blessed soul who had suffered at a remote period, in the same place and under the same circumstances as Sister Emmerich herself.

我很奇怪，那个人的身体在一个地方，他的灵魂却在另一个地方。然后，牧童走过来，把那羊羔抱了回来。」牧羊人很少照顾这只羊羔，羔羊却得到了一些圣灵魂的帮助，这些人曾在遥远的年代，在与艾曼丽修女相同的地方和环境中受苦受难。

On October 9th, she related the following : “There was a holy widow by me who had lived at the manor in Dulmen, and who had died in prison. She conversed with me a long time ; we have not yet finished our conversation. She spoke of her time and imprisonment, as if in the present ; justice and faith were proscribed terms in her day and, therefore, had she suffered. She told me her family name, she was of the house of Galen.

10 月 9 日，艾曼丽修女讲述了以下内容：「我身边有一位圣洁的寡妇，她曾住在杜尔门的庄园里，后来死在狱中。她和我谈了很久；我们的谈话还没有结束。她谈到了她的时代和监禁，仿佛就发生在现在；在她那个时代，正义和信仰是被禁止的词语，因此她遭受了苦难。她告诉我她的姓氏，她是盖伦家族的人。 

She showed me the prisons, partly subterranean, in which she and her relatives were confined. She spoke much of my own history, saying that all things happen according to the designs of God, and that I should never say anything but what is inspired at the moment.

她向我展示了她和她的亲戚被关押的监狱，部分是地下的。她谈到了我的很多经历，并说所有的事情都是在天主的允许下发生的，除了要说出当下天主给我的启示，我不应该说其他的话。

' How wonderfully,’ she said, ' hast thou faced the danger ! Hadst thou known it beforehand, thou wouldst have died of fright. Other wonders will be effected. Unbelief is at its height, unheard-of confusion will reign ; but after the storm, faith will be re-established!’— The lady seemed to know me well.

圣寡妇说:『你面对危险时的表现多么出色！如果你事先知道，你早就吓死了。其他奇迹将会发生。不信天主的人数达到顶峰，会出现前所未闻的混乱；但暴风雨过后，信仰会重新建立起来！』——这位夫人似乎很了解我。 

She explained to me many things in my life, consoled and encouraged me, saying that I had nothing to fear. She spoke of the state of the clergy, also of relics. ' It would be well.’ she said, 'if they were collected together and deposited in some church. They do, indeed, exercise a beneficent influence wherever they are, but the little respect shown them is very injurious. The dust in which they lie ought to be buried in blessed ground. There are still many relics at Diilmen Manor.'

她向我解释了我生活中的许多事情，安慰并鼓励我，说我没有什么好害怕的。她谈到了神职人员的状况，也谈到了圣髑。她说，『如果圣髑被收集在一起并存放在某个圣堂里就好了。的确，无论圣髑身在何处，都会发挥有益的影响，但人们对圣髑表现出极少的尊重，这是非常有害的。圣髑躺卧的泥土应在被祝圣过的土地里。杜尔门庄园还保留有很多圣髑。』

" The lady wore a robe, open at the neck, crossed in front and falling behind in folds with a train, the sleeves tight with trimming around the wrists gathered and starched, over which fell a part of the sleeve. She died innocent, imprisoned by an association, or secret tribunal which, at that time, was the cause of many evils and inspired great terror. It was something like the Free-masons, but more violent."

「这位夫人身穿长袍，领口敞开，前襟交叉，垂到后面折成褶裥，袖口收紧，手腕处镶着花边，上了浆，袖子垂落在上面。她是无辜死去的，被一个协会或秘密法庭囚禁，在当时，这组织是许多邪恶的起因并引发了极大的恐慌。它类似于共济会，但更加暴力。

Oct. 21st — " The good lady again appeared to me, conversed a long time, and repeated that she was of the family of Galen. She does not protect as sacred relics do, but she helps, she warns. She told me not to mind, for my persecutors fear me more than I do them. They attack me boldly because nothing is done to oppose them. “

10 月 21 日——「善良的夫人再次出现在我面前，和我交谈了很久，并重复说她是盖伦家族的人。她不会像圣髑那样保护人，而是帮助人，提醒人。她叫我不要担心，因为迫害我的人怕我胜过我害怕他们。他们之所以大胆地攻击我，是因为没有人采取行动反对他们。」

 “I met a man who also belonged to the time of the good lady of ' The Vehme' (1). I saw him in Diilmen Manor, whither he used often to go ; but once he stayed too long, which circumstance led to his death. He was one of the most distinguished men of the country, and one of the heads of the secret tribunal…… He was secretly very pious and good.

「我遇到了同样属于“维姆”（1）的那位善良夫人时代的一个男人。我在杜尔门庄园见过他，他经常去那里；但有一次他呆得太久，导致了他的死亡。他是全国最显赫的人之一，也是秘密法庭的首脑之一……他暗地里非常虔诚和善良。

He often received warnings on the iniquities and cruelties of the tribunal. He tried to prevent them by means of the good lady who gave notice to its intended victims and saved as many as she could. Once he remained too long with her planning projects of this kind. This roused the suspicions of some wicked men, who plotted to put him to death.

他经常收到有关（秘密）法庭的不公正和残酷行为的警告。他试图通过这位善良的夫人来阻止这些行为，这位善良的夫人通知了预定的受害者，并尽可能地挽救更多的人。有一次，在一起策划这类计划的时间太长了，这引起了一些恶人的怀疑，他们密谋将他处死。

（1）The secret tribunal mentioned above.

（1）上面提到的秘密法庭

"I beheld secret meetings at night, sinister-looking men introduced into this country, and going furtively from place to place. Then I had a vision of a castle and garden this side of Munster, an old building with towers. Here dwelt the good man. He was in the garden, wrapped in a mantle as if about to set out for the assembly, when three men in disguise fell upon him, stabbed him, and dragged him into an alley.

「我看到他们在夜间举行秘密会议，被引入这个国家的人看起来有些阴险，鬼鬼祟祟地四处走动。接着我又看见在明斯特的这一边有一座城堡和花园，一座有塔楼的古老建筑。这位善人住在这里。他在花园里，裹着一件斗篷，好像正要出发去集会，这时有三个乔装的人突然袭击了他，刺伤了他，把他拖进了一条小巷里。

The blood flowed in streams from his wounds and the men tried to wash away the stains, but in vain. They filled a sack with the blood-stained earth and carried it to Diilmen Manor with the body. They deposited them in a vault by the church where were the remains of many who had been killed in the same way.

鲜血从他的伤口流出，凶手试图洗去血污，但徒劳无功。他们将血迹斑斑的泥土装满了一麻袋，连同尸体一起运到了杜尔门庄园。他们将尸体和麻袋存放在教堂旁边的一个墓穴里，那里存放着许多以同样方式被杀的人的遗骸。

He belonged to the Droste family. . . . The lady told me that it was well for him to die when he did, for he was pious and his conscience was in a good state. ‘Fear not,’ she said to me, ‘things must be as they are. Thy persecutors have neither right nor reason to do thee harm. Let nothing disquiet thee! If thou art questioned, answer only what comes to thy mind at the moment!"

他属于德罗斯特家族……那位夫人告诉我，他死的恰到好处，因为他很虔诚，死时的良心状态也很好。「不要害怕，」她对我说，「事情一定是这样的。你的迫害者既没有权利也没有理由伤害你。不要让任何事使你不安！如果你被审问，只回答你当时想到的！」

Sister Emmerich in her humility was often occupied with this thought : " For what have I, poor sinner, deserved that my persecutors should render themselves so guilty on my account!” — and although God had given her the con- solation of knowing that she was not responsible, she begged for special sufferings to expiate their offence.

谦卑的艾曼丽修女常常被这样的想法所占据：「我这可怜的罪人，迫害我的人因为我而陷入如此大的罪孽，我所受的痛苦都是应得的！」——虽然天主给了她安慰，让她知道她对此没有责任，但她恳求天主赐予她特殊的痛苦来弥补迫害者们的罪行。

From the last week in October, she was a prey to interior abandonment, whilst her frame was consumed by fever, her tongue adhered to her palate, and she had not the strength to reach the water placed at her side ; the pain in her wounds often drew tears, and sometimes made her swoon away.

从十月的最后一周开始，艾曼丽修女内心被舍弃的感觉吞噬，她的周身被发烧所消耗，她的舌头粘在上颚上，连拿水喝的力气也没有了；伤口的疼痛常常让她流泪，有时甚至让她昏厥过去。

These were sufferings she had voluntarily embraced for the good of her neighbor. In her distress, she was consoled by an apparition of Blessed Nicholas von der Flue, who said to her : " I shall be thy very good friend, I shall help thee a little," and he held out to her a little bunch of herbs the smell of which gave her strength. “Thou sufferest," he said, "in every member of thy body, because the faults for which thou dost atone are so manifold. ''

这些是她为了近人的利益而自愿接受的苦难。在她的痛苦中，真福尼各老.冯.德.弗卢的显现安慰了她，他对艾曼丽修女说：「我将成为你的好朋友，我会给你一点帮助，」他递给艾曼丽一小束草药，那种气味给了艾曼丽力量。他说，「你身体的每一个部位都在受苦，因为你所弥补的过错实在是太多了。 」

On the nineteenth Sunday after Pentecost is read the Gospel of the wedding-feast and the nuptial robe. That night Blessed Nicholas was her guide in the following vision: —

在五旬节后的第十九主日，恭读婚宴和婚袍的福音。那天晚上，真福尼各老是艾曼丽修女在以下异象中的向导：——

"I saw Blessed Nicholas as a great, tall man with hair like silver. He wore a low notched crown, sparkling with, precious stones; his tunic, which descended to the ankles, was white as snow and he held in his hand another crown higher than his own and set with jewels. I asked him why he held that resplendent crown instead of the bunch of herbs.

「我看到的真福尼各老是一个高大的男人，一头银发。他戴着一顶低矮的王冠，上面闪烁着宝石；他的长袍一直垂到脚踝，洁白如雪，他手里拿着另一个王冠，比他自己的高些，镶着珠宝。我问他为什么拿着那顶金碧辉煌的王冠，而不是那束药草。

He spoke earnestly and in few words of my death, of my destiny, and said that he would take me to a great wedding-feast. He placed the crown on my head, and I flew with him into the palace which I saw in the air above me. I was to be a bride, but I was so timid and ashamed that I knew not what to do. It was a wedding of wonderful magnificence.

他诚恳而简短地谈到我的死，谈及我的命运，并说他会带我去参加一场盛大的婚宴。他把王冠戴在我的头上，我和他一起飞进了我在空中看到的宫殿。我将成为新娘，但我又胆小又羞愧，不知道该做什么。这是一场盛大的婚礼。 

I beheld the manners and customs of all classes of society on the occasion of a marriage festival, and the action of deceased ancestors upon their descendants. First of all was the banquet for the clergy. Here I saw the Pope, and Bishops with their croziers and episcopal robes, and many others of the clergy, high and low.

我看到了社会各阶层在婚庆上的风俗习惯，看到了已故祖先对他们后代子孫的所作所为。首先是神职人员的宴会。在这里，我看到了拿着权杖的教宗和穿着主教长袍的主教们，还有其他各等级的神职人员。

Above each one, in an upper choir, were the saints of his race, his ancestors, his patrons and the protectors of his charge, who acted through him, judging and deciding. At this table there were also spiritual affianced of the highest rank.

在每个人之上，在一个上层歌咏团中，是他种族的圣人、他的祖先、他的主保、和对他负责的监护人，他们通过每个人的行事，来判断和决定。在这张桌子上，还有最高等级的属神婚约。

With my crown on my head, I had to join them as their equal, which filled me with confusion. They were all still living, though as yet they had no crowns. Above me stood the one who had invited me and, as I was so abashed, he managed everything for me. The dishes on the table looked like earthly food, but they were not such in reality.

由于我头上戴着王冠，又必须以平等的身份加入他们的行列，这让我感到困惑。他们都还活着，尽管他们还没有冠冕。在我上方站着邀请我的人，由于我非常羞愧，他为我安排了一切。桌上的菜肴看起来像人间的食物，但实际上并非如此。 

I saw through everything, I read all hearts. Back of the banquet- hall were many different rooms filled with people, and there were new arrivals at every moment. Many among the ecclesiastics seated at the banquet were ordered out as unworthy, for they had mixed with worldlings, had served them rather than the Church.

我看穿了一切，我读懂了所有人的心。宴会厅的后面有许多不同的房间，挤满了人，每时每刻都有新来的人。许多坐在宴席上的神职人员被视为不配而被驱逐出宴会厅，因为他们与世俗的人混在一起，为世俗服务而不是为教会服务。

The worldlings were punished first, then the ecclesiastics were banished to other apartments, more or less remote. The number of the just was very small. This was the first table and the first hour.

先是世俗的人受到惩罚，然后神职们被放逐到其他的房间，或多或少地远离宴会厅。正义之士的人数很少。这是第一张桌子和第一个时辰。 

" The clergy withdrew and another table was prepared at which I did not sit. I stood among the spectators, Blessed Nicholas still above me to help me. Emperors, kings, and sovereign princes placed themselves at table, great lords served them, and above were the saints reckoned among the ancestors of each.

「神职人员撤出了，另一张桌子准备好了，我没有就坐。我站在观众中间，真福尼各老仍在我上方帮助我。皇帝、国王和王公们都坐在桌旁，大领主为他们服务，而在他们上方的则是每个人祖先中的圣人。

To my great embarrassment, some of the kings noticed me, but Nicholas came to my aid and always answered for me. They sat not long at table. They were all alike, their actions imperfect, weak and inconsistent ; if one happened to be a little superior to his fellows it was not through virtue. Some came not quite up to the table, and all were sent away in their turn.

令我非常尴尬的是，有些国王注意到了我，但尼各老来帮助我，并总是替我应付。他们在桌旁边坐了不久。他们都是一样的，他们的行为不完美、软弱，前后矛盾；如果有人碰巧比他的同伴稍微优越一点，那也不是因为德行。有些人还没有走到桌子跟前，就被打发走了。

“I remember in particular the Croy family. They must have had among them a holy stigmatisee, for she said to me, ' See, there are the Croys!”

“Then came the table of the distinguished nobility, and I saw among others the good Vehme lady hovering over her family.

「我特别记得克罗伊一家。他们家族中一定有一个印五伤圣女，因为她对我说，『看，有克罗伊家人！』」

「然后是尊贵贵族的餐桌，我看到那位善良的维姆夫人在她的家人上空盘旋。

" Then came the table of the wealthy citizens, and I can-not describe the frightful state of this class. Most of them were sent away and cast with those of the nobility who were as bad as themselves, into a hole like a sewer where they splashed about in mud and filth.

「然后是富豪们的餐桌，我无法形容这个阶层的可怕状态。他们中的大多数都被赶走了，与那些像他们一样糟糕的贵族们一起被扔进了一个像下水道一样的洞里，他们在泥浆和污秽中打滚，泥浆溅得到处都是。

" After these came a class of a little better standing, honest old citizens and peasants. There were many good people here, among them my own family. My father and mother stood above my other relatives. Then came the descendants of Brother Klaus (Blessed Nicholas), right good, strong tradesmen ; but some of them were rejected.

「在这之后，出现了一个地位稍高的阶层，他们是诚实的公民和农民。这里有很多好人，其中包括我自己的家人。我的父亲和母亲比我的其他亲戚更优秀，站在我的其他亲戚上面。然后是克劳斯修士的后代（真福尼各老），他们是正义良善，强势的商人；但他们中的一些人被拒绝了。 

Then came the poor and the crippled from among whom many pious people were excluded, as well as the bad. I had much to do with them. Above them I saw numbers of persons and tribunals. I cannot recount all. When the six tables were over, the holy man brought me back again to my bed from which he had taken me.

然后是许多穷人和残疾人，从许多虔诚的人中被排除在外，也有坏人。我和穷人和残疾人有很大的关系。在他们上方，我看到了许多人和法庭。我无法一一细数。当六张宴席结束后，圣人又把我带回了他带我离开的床上。

I was very weak, quite unconscious ; I could neither speak nor make a sign, I seemed about to die. Klaus signified to me that my life would be short, without however specifying any particular time for its close. "

我很虚弱，完全失去知觉；我既不能说话，也不能做手势，我似乎快要死了。克劳斯向我暗示我的生命将很短暂，但没有说明生命结束的具体时间。」

November 8th — “Again I had a great vision of persecution and I beheld my miseries increase. I saw my enemies watching that no one should help me, and gathering up all that was said and done against me. The devil, furious with me, was rushing with open jaws on certain persons to confuse them and chase them away ; but what hurt me most, was that my nearest friends reproached and tormented me with inconsiderate advice and accusations.

11月 8 日——「我再次看到了迫害的可怕神视，我看到我的痛苦增加了。我看到我的敌人看守着不让任何人来帮助我，并收集所有针对我的言行。魔鬼对我大发雷霆，张着嘴冲向某些人，想迷惑他们，把他们赶走；但最让我伤心的是，我最亲密的朋友用不体谅的建议和指责来责备和折磨我。

They that were willing to help me were few and they could do nothing. My persecutors assailed me in my abandonment, and I was deprived of spiritual and corporal assistance. My enemies loaded me with trials hitherto unknown. ‘Where,’ they asked, ‘are your ghostly Superiors? where your spiritual directors？Have they ceased to interest themselves in you？Who among the clergy are your protectors?’

愿意帮助我的人很少，而他们也无能为力。我的迫害者在我被遗弃时攻击我，我被剥夺了精神和肉体的帮助。我的敌人给我带来了前所未有的审讯。 「他们问道，『你那属灵上级在哪里？你的精神导师在哪里？他们对你不再感兴趣了吗？神职人员中谁是你的保护者？』

 — Their words tortured me, drove me almost wild, and the desertion of my dearest friends afflicted me keenly. When I was almost in despair Nicholas von der Flue appeared. He told me to thank God for showing me these things, to arm myself with patience, and especially to avoid anger in my replies which should be reserved; that the trial would be shorter, if borne well ; and, finally, that I still had much to suffer from my friends who would injure me and exact things of me, though not with a bad intention.

——他们的话折磨着我，几乎把我逼疯了，我最亲爱的朋友们的遗弃使我痛苦万分。当我几乎陷入绝望时，尼各老·冯·德·弗卢出现了。他要我感谢天主让我看到这些事，让我用耐心武装自己，特别是在应该保留给我的回答中避免生气，如果处理得当，审讯会缩短；最后，我仍然要为我的朋友们承受很多痛苦，她们还会伤害我，向我索要东西，尽管不是出于恶意。

If I endured this patiently, I should profit by it. He promised that the trial would not last long and that he would help me. Then he gave me his own little prayer on paper which I was to say. I had made use of it from my youth. It ran thus : ' Lord, detach me from myself.’ etc. He gave me also a picture about the size of my hand.

如果我能耐心地忍受这一切，我应该会从中受益。尼各老保证审讯不会持续太久，他会帮助我。然后，他给我一纸他自己的小祈祷文，让我在需要时诵念。我从小就念过这祷文。它是这样写的：『主啊，让我弃绝自我。』等等。他还给了我一张手掌大小的圣像。

On top was a sun, and underneath the word, Justice, from which I understood that Divine Justice would end my persecution. At the bottom was a face full of benevolence with the word Mercy, and this gave me the assurance that I should soon receive help from the Divine Mercy. Under the face was a coffin with four lighted tapers.”

在圣像上部是一个太阳，下面写着 "正义"二字，我从中明白天主的正义将会结束我的迫害。在圣像下部是一张充满慈祥的脸，上面写着“仁慈”，这让我确信自己很快就会得到天主仁慈的帮助。脸的下面是一具棺材，棺材四角有四只点燃的锥形蜡烛。」 

Her vision was soon realized. One week after the Landrath's injurious pamphlet, her Superiors and friends urged her to appeal to a higher tribunal, and to lodge a formal complaint against him and the treatment she had received during imprisonment (1).

艾曼丽修女的异象很快就实现了。兰德拉斯的具有伤害性的小册子发布一周后，艾曼丽修女的长上和朋友敦促她向上级法庭上诉，并对兰德拉斯和她在监禁期间所受到的待遇提出正式申诉（1）。

(1) " I see, on account of this writing," she said, " my enemies contending; they separate, they are dissatisfied. The Landrath stands alone. "

（1）「我明白了，由于这篇文章，」她说，「我看到我的敌人在争吵；他们分裂了，他们不满意。兰德拉特孤军奋战。」

The affair was pressed on all sides ; but Sister Emmerich, in obedience to her angelic director, declined taking such a step. She saw the sufferings now prepared for her under the image of a thorn-hedge which she had to cross.

这件事受到各方的压力；但艾曼丽修女服从护守天神，拒绝采取这样的行动。她把现在为她准备的苦难看成是她必须跨过的一道荆棘。

" The sight of it terrified me," she said. " but my guide encouraged me — “How many hast thou not already crossed ! Wilt thou despair at the end?”— I knelt and prayed and, by virtue of my prayer, I crossed the hedge, I know not how. I felt invisible assistance. Then I saw three men coming toward me who tried to make me say what I would do to the Landrath.

「看到这神视让我害怕，」但护守天神鼓励我，说：「你还有很多没有跨越的障碍，你在最后时刻会绝望吗？」——我跪下来祈祷，凭借我的祈祷，我越过了树篱，我不知道如何做到的。我感觉到有无形的援助，然后我看到三个男人向我走来，他们试图让我说出我会对兰德拉斯做什么。

I told them that I would read his pamphlet to see if it were in accordance with his character, and that, if my Superiors questioned me, I should tell the truth. I was told also that my wounds would bleed next Good-Friday and again on another day; that enemies were waiting for this event; but they would never see it, as they sought not the truth.

我告诉他们，我会阅读他的小册子，看看是否符合事实，如果我的上级询问我，我应该照实说。护守天神还告诉我，我的伤口会在下一个圣周五，改天还会再流血。敌人正在等待这个事件；但他们永远不会看到流血，因为他们不寻求真理。

"I beheld crowds of children who came from Minister with some grown people to see the impostor ; but they were all kind to me, they loved the impostor very much. It seemed as if I taught them something. Several saints were round me in this vision and, what pleased me greatly, St. Francis dressed in a long, coarse robe was among them, his forehead very broad, his jaws hollow, his chin large.

「我看到一群群孩子从明斯特那里出来，和一些成年人一起来看我这个“骗子”；但他们对我都很友善，他们非常喜欢这个“骗子”。似乎我教了他们一些东西。有几位圣人在这个异象中站在我身边。让我非常高兴的是，圣五伤方济穿着一件又长又粗的长袍，就在他们中间，他的前额很宽，颌骨凹陷，下巴很大。

He consoled me ; and told me not to complain, that he, too, had been persecuted. He had kept his wounds very secret; but the blood from his side often streamed down to his feet. Although some had seen his wounds, they did not in consequence believe. It is better to believe and not to see, for seeing does not make them believe who have not the gift of faith. He (St. Francis) was tall, thin, vigorous, his hollow cheeks ruddy as of one interiorly inflamed, and he had black eyes. I saw no beard. He was not infirm, but very winning and sprightly."

他安慰我；告诉我不要抱怨，他也曾受到迫害。他把自己的伤口藏得严严实实，但他肋旁的血经常流到他的脚下。虽然有些人看到了他的伤口，但仍旧不信。最好是相信而不是看见，因为看见并不能使那些没有信心恩赐的人相信。他（圣五伤方济）个子很高，身材瘦削，精力充沛，他凹陷的脸颊红扑扑的，好像内心着了火似的，他有一双黑色的眼睛。我没看到胡子。他并不虚弱，而且吸引人和精力充沛。」

When Sister Emmerich was informed of her Superior's desire that she should appeal to a higher court, she suddenly closed her eyes, and fell into ecstasy, her countenance becoming very grave. She afterward said: — “I invoked God, the Father. I begged Him to look upon His Son who satisfies for sinners at every moment, who every moment offers Himself in sacrifice, that He might not be too severe toward that poor, blind Landrath, but to assist and enlighten him for the love of His Son.

当艾曼丽修女得知她的长上希望她向高级法院上诉时，她突然闭上了眼睛，陷入了神魂超拔，她的脸色变得非常凝重。她后来说：「我祈求上主，天父。我恳求祂看在祂圣子每时每刻为罪人补赎，每时每刻都在牺牲奉献自己的份上，不要对那个可怜、盲目的兰德拉斯过于严厉，而是为了祂圣子的爱，而帮助和启迪这个罪人。

At the same instant, I saw a vision of Good-Friday, the Lord sacrificing Himself upon the cross, Mary and the disciples at its foot. This picture I saw over the altar at which priests say Mass. I see it at all hours of the day and night. I see, too, the whole parish, how the people pray, well or badly, and how the priest fulfils his duties. I see first the church here, then the churches and parishes all around, as one sees near him a fruit-tree lit up by the sun, and in the distance others grouped together like a wood.

就在那一刻，我看到耶稣在圣周五受难的异象，主在十字架上祭献自己，圣母玛利亚和门徒在十字架脚下。这画面是我在祭坛上看到的，神父在那里做弥撒，无论白天黑夜，我每时每刻都看到这景象。我也看到了整个教区，人们如何祈祷，无论祈祷得好坏，以及神父如何履行职责。我首先看到这里的教堂，然后是周围的教堂和堂区，就像人们看到在他身边的一棵被太阳照亮的果树，而在远处，其他果树聚集在一起，像一片树林。

I see Mass celebrated at all hours of the day and night throughout the world, and in some far-off regions with the same ceremonies as in the times of the Apostles. Above the altar, I see a heavenly worship in which an angel supplies all that the priest neglects. I offer my own heart for the want of piety among the faithful and I beg the Lord for mercy. I see many priests performing this duty pitiably.

我看到世界各地不分昼夜地举献弥撒，在一些遥远的地区，也有和宗徒时代一样的弥撒仪式。在祭坛上方，我看到天上的朝拜，其中一位天神弥补了司铎所忽略的一切。我为信徒们缺乏虔诚献上自己的心，我祈求天主怜悯。我看到许多神父可怜兮兮地履行着这个职责。

Some, mere formalists, are so attentive to the outward ceremonies as to neglect interior recollection ; they think only of how they appear to the congregation, and not at all of God. The scrupulous ever long to feel their own piety. I have had these impressions since childhood. Often during the day I am absorbed in this far-off gazing on the Holy Sacrifice ; if I am spoken to my answer comes as from a person who interrupts not his own work to answer a child's questions.

有些神父，是纯粹的形式主义者，他们太注重外表的仪式，而忽视了内在的思考；他们只考虑如何在众人面前表现自己，而根本不思念天主。恪守礼仪的人总是渴望感受到自己的虔诚。我从小就有这些印象。白天，我常常从遥远的地方全神贯注地凝视着这个神圣的祭献，如果有人对我说话，我就像一个人不中断自己的工作而回答孩子的问题。

Jesus loves us so much that He constantly renews His work of Redemption. The Mass is the hidden history of Redemption, Redemption become a Sacrament. I saw all this in my earliest youth and I used to think every one did the same.”

耶稣如此爱我们，以至于祂不断更新祂的救赎工作。弥撒是隐藏的救恩史，救赎成为了圣事。我在我最年幼的时候就看到了这一切，我曾经认为每个人都看到了。」 

That afternoon, still in ecstasy, she said: — "They call me disobedient, but I dare not do otherwise. They want me to complain ! When it is too late, they will help me ! I see what trouble the wicked enemy gives himself to bring about a lawsuit ; he wants me to lodge a complaint, he can-not harm me in any other way. I see that if there is a suit, I shall die and all will be hushed up, and that is what the devil is after.

那天下午，她还在神魂超拔中说：「他们说我不听命，但这恰恰是我不敢做的事情。他们希望我投诉！当为时已晚的时候，他们会帮助我的！我看到邪恶的敌人给牠自己带来了多大的官司麻烦，敌人想要我发起诉讼，但牠不能以任何方式伤害我。我看到，如果有官司，我会死于这官司，然后一切都将被掩盖，这就是魔鬼想要的。

My guide has said to me : ' Thy best friends want thee to begin a lawsuit, but beware of doing so ! Forget not that the signs thou bearest are not signs of accusation, but of reconciliation. They have not been given to thee for strife, but for pardon. Write two letters in thy prayer-book, an L. (liebe, love) and a V. (vergiss nicht, forget not). Let them complain, but thou not ! "

护守天神对我说：『你最好的朋友希望你提起诉讼，但你这样做时要小心！不要忘记，你身上的印记不是控告的印记，而是和好的印记。这印记被赐给你不是为了争辩，而是为了宽恕。在你的祈祷手册上写下两个字母，一个 L.（liebe德语，爱）和一个 V.（vergiss nicht德语，不要忘记）。让他们抱怨吧，但你不要！」 

How faithfully she obeyed her guide's instructions, we see from the Pilgrim's notes, a few days later : " She suffers intensely, she vomits blood, her forehead is inflamed, and the pains of her wounds are so violent that the bed shakes under her quivering limbs. She will not be helped by relics now ; she wants to endure her pain for the poor souls and for her enemies."

几天后，我们从朝圣者的笔记中看到，她是多么忠实地遵守了她的护守天神的指示：「她痛苦不堪，她吐血，她的前额发炎，她的伤口疼痛如此剧烈，以至于她的床在她的颤抖下摇晃。她现在不会得到圣髑的帮助；因为她想为可怜的灵魂和她的敌人忍受痛苦。」 

These poor souls thanked her the following night. "I was the occasion,” she said, " of a very great procession of the purified souls. They were known to me, they prayed for me. I took the heavy crucifix from the Coesfeld church, detached the figure, and carried it. I was the only living being there. The souls wore not the clothes of their own time, still all were clothed differently and their countenances were different.

第二天晚上，这些可怜的灵魂向她道谢。艾曼丽说，「在一个净化灵魂的大游行场景中。我认识他们，他们也为我祈祷。我从科斯费尔德教堂取下沉重的十字架，拆下耶稣苦像，背起十字架。我是游行中唯一的活着的人。灵魂们并没有穿着他们那个时代的衣服，但他们的穿着仍然不同，他们的容貌也各不相同。

They went barefoot, some whiter or grayer than others. I went with the procession out of the gate, and I had much communication with the poor souls. I went to two Jesuits to whom I had confessed in my youth. One lived with his pious sisters who sold coffee, but privately ; it was not a public store. I often bought coffee there after the first Mass.

他们赤足行走，有些灵魂比其他灵魂更白或更灰。我跟着游行队伍走出大门，与那些可怜的灵魂进行了很多交流。我去找了两位耶稣会士，我年轻时曾向他们办过告解。其中一位和他虔诚的卖咖啡的姐姐住在一起，他姐姐的咖啡店是私营小店，不是公共店铺。我经常在第一台弥撒后在那里买咖啡。

The spirit of the old man pointed out the little house to me and remarked how changed all was now. He told me that he remembered me distinctly, that he had always wished me well, and that he prayed for me. The other also spoke with me."

老人的灵魂向我指了指小房子，说现在一切都变了。他告诉我他清楚地记得我，他一直祝愿我一切都好，他为我祈祷。另一位会士也跟我说了话。」 

The evil consequences that would result from any action she might take against the commission were shown her by her angel. She saw that after the unfavorable impression of the commission produced on the public mind by the Landrath's pamphlet, her enemies would willingly carry her off from Dulmen under pretence of a new investigation.

艾曼丽修女的护守天神向她展示了她对反对委员会采取的任何行动可能导致的恶果。艾曼丽看到，在兰德拉斯的小册子给公众留下了对委员会不利的印象之后，她的敌人会以重新调查为借口，故意地将她从杜尔门带走。

All the details of their plans were shown her as if being actually executed; and this made her suffer so much the more acutely as she was forced to bear it in silence. “God alone can help me,” she said weeping ; “I have neither consolation nor help beside. " She heard in her visions the words :

“This is a warning of what they will do," and she beheld the sufferings by which she would avert the dangers.

敌人计划的所有细节都向她展示了，就好像正在执行一样；这让她更加痛苦，因为她不得不默默承受。「只有天主才能帮助我，」 她哭泣着说。 「我身边没有安慰也没有帮助。」 她在神视中听到了这样的话：「这是对他们将要做的事的警告，」 她看到了为避免灵魂堕落的危险，她所忍受的痛苦。 

“Thou mayest ward off the sufferings awaiting thee from thy enemies by prayer ; but they will be replaced by others and by annoyances from thy friends," said her Heavenly Spouse to her one day. " Thou wilt often be almost in despair." — and the very next morning, Gertrude loaded her with reproaches, such as “she gave away to the poor all that they had, she was a spendthrift, their affairs were every which way, and she was ruled by the evil spirit !"

有一天，天主对她说:「你可以通过祈祷抵挡你的仇敌将要加给你的苦难；但这些苦难会被他人和你朋友的烦恼所取代，你会常常陷于绝望。」——第二天早上，格特鲁德就对艾曼丽大加责备，比如「她把她们俩所有的东西都给了穷人，她是一个挥霍无度的人，每件事都是这样，她受了邪灵的支配！」 

" I found her very weak," says the Pilgrim, “her cheeks stained with tears; she vomited blood, she was consumed by thirst, and she could not drink. The evil one tormented her. As soon as Gertrude began her reproaches, he showed himself visibly. — ‘When I was alone and in prayer,’ she said, ‘I was freed from his presence or, better still, when I took up my relics ; but, if I laid them aside, there he was again ! I struggled with him all day.

「我发现她非常虚弱，」朝圣者说，「她的脸颊上沾满了泪水；她吐血，口渴难耐，但不能喝水。恶魔折磨着她。格特鲁德一开始责备艾曼丽，恶魔就显出了原形。——『当我独自一人祈祷时，』艾曼丽说，『或者当我拿起我的圣髑时，我就摆脱了恶魔；但是，如果我把圣髑放在一边，恶魔又会出现在我的面前！我整天都在和恶魔搏斗。

When the Pilgrim tried to comfort me, the apparition became more frightful. It was the same demon who was always present in Mersmann's house among the commissioners.’— When, at last, the enemy was forced to retire, she saw the road she had yet to travel before reaching the Heavenly Jerusalem.

当朝圣者试图安慰我时，恶魔显现变得更加可怕。正是同一个恶魔，一直出现在默斯曼住所的委员会的专员中。』——当敌人终于被迫撤退时，艾曼丽看到了她在到达天堂耶路撒冷之前所要走的路。

It was a rugged path broken up by precipices over which both friends and enemies had stretched nets to ensnare her ; scraps of writing were attached to many of them as if to warn her. She read : Be silent ! Turn aside ! Suffer patiently ! Look not back ! Look straight ahead ! Do not lose sight of Me too often !' which last words gave rise to a conversation with her Spouse from which she gathered charity and patience.

这是一条崎岖不平的小路，两边都是悬崖峭壁，朋友和敌人都在这条路上布下罗网来诱捕艾曼丽。许多人身上都贴着一些有字的纸片，好像是在警告她。她念到：『保持沉默！绕开罗网! 耐心忍受痛苦吧！别回头！直视前方！不要经常忘记我！』最后这句话引发了艾曼丽与她的净配的对话，她从中获得了仁爱和耐心。

‘Yes, I see it!’ she exclaimed, ' He shows me what I have already surmounted!’— ' And who has guided thee thus far!’ said He to her. ‘How canst thou complain ? thou forgettest Me too often ! — ‘Ah ! my well-beloved Spouse, I understand all now. All things are for the best. I would rather be despised and ill-treated with Thee than rejoice with the world!'

『是的，我看到了！』艾曼丽惊呼道，『主向我展示了我已经克服的困难！』——『是谁一直指引着你！』主对她说。『你怎么能抱怨呢？你常常忘记我！』——『啊！我亲爱的净配，我现在都明白了。一切都是最好的安排。我宁愿与祢一起被藐视、被虐待，也不愿和这个世界一起快乐！』

" Some days after, when I was in distress, the evil spirit again placed before me various pictures of the sufferings in store for me ; he showed them as quite unbearable, and I was on the point of yielding. Then I thought, I will make an effort and flee away, but I could not. I sank back, because I was acting on my own light.

「几天以后，当我处于痛苦之中时，恶魔又把各种为我预备的痛苦的画面摆在我面前，牠把这些痛苦表现得非常难以忍受，我快要屈服了。然后我想，我要努力避开这些痛苦，但是我没办法。我消沉了，因为我在照我自己的意愿行事。

I was at last worn out with the struggle, and I said, ‘Now I will bear my misery with my Lord Jesus!’ At the same moment the Lord appeared to me pale and exhausted, dragging His cross up Golgotha and sinking under the weight. I flew to Him, conscious of how I had wronged Him, I acknowledged my sin, and took one end of His cross on my shoulders. Now had I strength and vigor, because I acted for Jesus. He showed me what He endured for me, and my cowardice confounded me : but thanks to Him, I again have courage!”

我终于在挣扎中筋疲力尽了，我说：『现在我要与我的主耶稣同受苦难！』与此同时，主向我显现，祂显得苍白而疲惫，拖着祂的十字架上各耳哥达并在重压下跌倒。我飞奔向祂，意识到我是如何冤枉了祂，我承认了我的罪，并将祂十字架的一端放在我的肩上。现在我有了力量和活力，因为我为耶稣行事。主向我展示了祂为我所承受的一切，本來我的怯懦使我羞愧：但多亏了祂，現在我又有了勇气！」 

"On the Feast of St. Cecilia, my cowardice again forced itself upon me and I felt remorse for not having been more patient during the investigation. I invoked St. Cecilia for consolation, and she came to me instantly through the air. O heart-rending sight ! Her head half-severed from her body, lay on her left shoulder ! She was short, slight and delicate, black hair and eyes, and a fair complexion. She wore a yellowish white robe, with large heavy golden flowers, the same in which she had been martyred. She spoke as follows : —

「在圣则济利亚的瞻礼上，我的怯懦再次向我袭来，我为在调查过程中没有表现出更多的耐心而自责。我祈求圣则济利亚的安慰，她立即从空中向我走来。哦，令人心碎的景象！她的头从身上半砍下来，搭在她的左肩上！她身材矮小，苗条而娇嫩，黑头发黑眼睛，皮肤白皙。她穿着一件黄白色的长袍，袍上印着大片浓密的金色花朵，她殉道时就穿着这套衣服。她是这样说的：——

" ' Be patient ! God will forgive thy fault, if thou dost repent. Be not so troubled for having spoken the truth to thy persecutors. When one is innocent, he may speak boldly to his enemy. I, too, reproached my enemies. When they spoke to me of blooming youth and the golden flowers on my robe, I replied that I esteemed them as little as the clay of which their gods were formed and that I expected gold in exchange for them. Look ! with this wound, I lived three days and tasted the consolation of Jesus Christ's servants.

「『要有耐心！如果你悔改，天主会原谅你的过错。不要因为对迫害你的人说了真话而烦恼。当一个人是无辜的，他可以大胆地对他的敌人说话。我也曾谴责我的敌人。当他们对我谈起我盛开的青春和我长袍上的金色花朵时，我回答说，我轻看这些，就像轻看他们用泥土捏成的偶像一样，我希望用比黄金更贵重的东西来与之交换。看！带着这个伤口，我活了三天，尝到了耶稣基督仆人的安慰。 

I have brought thee patience, this child in green. Love him, he will help thee !’ She disappeared and I wept with joy. The child sat down by me on the bed and stayed with me. He sat uncomfortably on the edge, kept his little hands in his sleeves, and hung his head with a mournful but kind air, asking for nothing, complaining of nothing.

我给你带来了耐心，这个穿绿衣的孩子。爱他吧，他会帮助你的！』圣则济利亚消失了，我高兴地哭了。孩子坐在我身边的床上，一直陪着我。他不自在地坐在床边，两只小手插在衣袖里，垂着头，神情哀伤而又慈祥，什么也不要求，什么也不抱怨。

His demeanor touched and consoled me more than I can say. I remember having had the patience-child by me once before. When the people from Holland tormented me almost to death, the Mother of God brought him to me. He said : ' See, I allow myself to be taken on either arm, nursed or put on the floor, I am always satisfied — do thou the same ! ' Since that time, even in my waking state I see that child, seated near me, and I have really acquired patience and peace."

他的举止感动了我，给了我难以言表的安慰。我记得以前我曾经遇到过一个耐心的孩子。当荷兰人把我折磨得几乎要死的时候，圣母玛利亚把他带到了我身边。这耐心的孩子说：『看，我允许自己被任何一只手臂抱着，被呵护或被放在地上，我总是很满意——你也这样做吧！』从那时起，即使在我醒着的状态下，我也能看到坐在我旁边的那个孩子，我真正的获得了耐心和平安。」

She endured in vision torments equivalent to exterior persecution to satisfy the justice of God.

艾曼丽修女在神视中承受了相当于现实中外在迫害的补赎，以满足天主的公义。

Nov. 13th — "I saw myself carried by shouting and hooting enemies up a high scaffold which was so narrow that I could hardly lie on it. I was in danger of falling and breaking my neck. My enemies were triumphant at the sight. I lay in agony, until at last the Mother of God appeared in the form of her statue of Einsiedeln, and made the scaffold , broad enough for me to walk on it. When I descended unexpectedly, my enemies were filled with confusion."

11 月 13 日——「我看到自己被敌人叫喊着抬到了一个高高的刑台上，这个刑台非常狭窄，我几乎无法躺在上面，我有掉下去摔断脖子的危险。看到这一幕，我的敌人得意洋洋。我痛苦地躺着，直到最后圣母以她的“艾因西德伦”圣母雕像的形式出现，她把刑台变得足够宽敞，足以让我在上面行走。当我出乎意料地从刑台上下来时，我的敌人都惊慌失措。」

Nov. 25th — “I found myself again on an enclosed scaffold in whose centre was an opening through which one beheld a dark prison. All was still, I saw no one and it seemed as if I were about to perish secretly by falling through the hole. Then Sts. Frances and Louisa appeared, they who had so often helped me. They raised a plank and showed me a ladder which, as soon as I stepped upon it, sank with me to the ground, and I escaped. Then an old nun of our convent washed my soiled feet; but the marks of the wounds were not removed, and I drew my feet away in confusion." 

11 月 25 日——「我再次发现自己置身于一个封闭的刑台上，刑台的中心是一个开口，透过这个开口，可以看到一座黑暗的监狱。四周一片寂静，我看不见一个人，似乎我要掉进这黑洞而悄悄地死去。然后圣方济和雅仙达出现了，他们曾多次帮助我。他们举起一块木板，给我看一个梯子，我一踩上梯子，梯子就跟我一起降落在地上，我得以逃脱。接着，我们修道院的一位老修女洗了我脏兮兮的脚；但伤口的痕迹没有去除，我就慌慌张张地把脚挪开了。」

Nov. 27 — " That I might see what dangers I had escaped, I was taken by my guide into an empty four cornered house like a barn. On one side stood a great cauldron as large as my room, under which blazed a fire. I was to be thrown into the kettle. First came all the young people I knew with sticks and shavings, but their fire soon burned out. Then came all the married people and old women I had ever known. They built a blazing fire with great logs, but it also went out without even catching all round though some embers lay smouldering.

11 月 27 日——「为了让我看看我逃过了什么样的危险，我被护守天神领进了一间四角的谷仓似的空屋子，屋子的一边立着一口和我的房间一样大的大锅，锅底下生着火。我将要被扔进锅里。首先来的都是我认识的年轻人，手里拿着干柴和刨花，但他们的火很快就熄灭了。然后，我认识的所有已婚人士和老妇人都来了，他们就用大木头生起了一堆火，但是火也熄灭了，甚至没有燃着周围的柴火，尽管有些余烬还在闷烧。

I was not yet thrown into the cauldron. After them came the nuns and made a fire in a most ridiculous way. They heaped up slyly all kinds of trash, reeds, withered leaves, dry herbs, nothing but hollow worm-eaten things which they could bring easily and secretly. They were praying all the time and running into the church. No one wanted her neighbor to see what she did, and yet all were doing the same thing.

我还没有被扔进大锅里。修女们跟在他们后面来了，她们用一种最荒谬的方式生起了一堆火，她们狡猾地堆起各种各样的垃圾，芦苇，枯叶，干草，除了那些被虫蛀了的空心的东西，没有别的。她们可以轻易地偷偷拿来。她们一直在祈祷，然后跑进教堂。她们中间没有人想让近人看到自已的所作所为，然而所有人都在做同样的事情。 

It was most amusing to see them making the fire. I recognized each one's peculiar style. I saw in particular Sister Soentgen. She piled up a good deal of wood, so that some of the smouldering sticks were relighted. Then the nuns left the house one after another, and I, too, retired. Soon, however, I returned. Now came people of all sorts in vehicles, among them some doctors, who made observations, setting the cauldron on the fire and feeling again and again if the water was getting hot.

看她们生火真是有趣。我辨认出了每个人的独特风格。我特别看到了索恩根修女。她堆了许多木柴，好让一些冒烟的树枝重新点燃。然后修女们一个接一个地离开了房子，我也退了出去。然而不久，我又回来了。这时各式各样的人乘着车来了，其中有一些医生，他们一边观察，一边把大锅放在火上，一次又一次地试探着摸锅里的水，看它是否变热。

Then Sister Soentgen came back, stirred up the fire, and spoke so sweetly that I also ran and brought a log of wood for it. Then came spies, among them the Landrath; they seized me suddenly and threw me into the cauldron. I was frightened to death. I thought I should die. They repeatedly drew me half out and plunged me in again up to the neck, sometimes forcing me down to the very bottom where I awaited my death in agony.

然后，索恩特修女回来了，把火拔旺，她对我甜言蜜语，以至于我也跑去拿了一根木头助燃。这时，来了几个探子，其中有兰德拉斯；他们突然抓住我，把我扔进锅里。我吓得要死。我以为我要死了。他们反复地把我拉出一半，然后再把我投入锅中，水一直没到脖子，有时还将我整个压到锅底，等待我痛苦地死去。 

Then came my friends, Frances and Louisa, to take me out, but I insisted on remaining till the end. At last, however, they took me under the arms and lifted me out, a proceeding which the cooks unwillingly allowed. They went away saying : ' We shall try it in another place, there are too many people here.' — I saw them go to an upper, retired chamber in which they wanted to shut me up, but they did not succeed.

然后我的朋友圣方济和雅仙达来了，要带我出去，但我坚持要留到最后。最后，他们把我夹在腋下，把我拎了出来，煮水的人们不情愿地允许了这一举动。他们说：『我们换个地方试试，这里人太多了。』——我看到他们走到楼上一间隐蔽的房间，他们想把我关在里面，但他们没有成功。

 “I thought that, to comfort me in my frightful agony, Blessed Louisa took me to Rome and left me in a great cave, where I saw numerous bones of the saints, bones of the arms and smaller ones arranged in order, and many little pots, urns, and flasks of various shapes, containing dried blood of the saints. I had never before seen such things. I found bones of which I have little particles, and also blood belonging to the saints of whom I have relics.

「我想，为了在我极度痛苦时安慰我，真福雅仙达把我带到罗马，把我留在一个巨大的洞穴里，在那里，我看到了许多圣徒的骸骨、手臂和小臂的骸骨排列得整整齐齐，还有许多小罐子、小瓮和小瓶子，形状各异，里面盛着圣徒的干血。我以前从未见过这些圣髑。我找到了那骨头，我拥有其上的小碎片，还有这圣人在圣髑上的血。 

译者注：真福路易莎·阿尔贝托尼Blessed Louise Albertoni年轻时服从父母意愿结婚，育三女，33 岁守寡，献身天主。公开加入在俗修会，进行了最严厉的苦修，并且无法抗拒地默想我们的救主的苦难。

The cave was quite bright, lit up by these sacred objects. I arranged and venerated them ; and I was thinking how I should get out, when the soul of a woman I had once known appeared to me. She told me that I must end her sufferings. She had sought me long and only now found me.

这个洞穴非常明亮，是被这些圣髑照亮的，我排列并敬礼这些圣髑；我正想着怎么出去时，一个我曾经认识的女人的灵魂出现在我面前。她告诉我，我必须终止她的苦难。她找了我很久，现在才找到我。

During life she had refused a poor pregnant woman a piece of buttered bread which she craved and which she might easily have spared her. For this she was now devoured by insatiable hunger. She begged me to help her. Then appeared, also, the soul of the other poor woman entreating me earnestly in behalf of her neighbor. I had once known her too.

她生前曾拒绝给一位可怜的孕妇一片黄油面包，而这位孕妇渴望得到面包。她本可以轻易地满足孕妇。为此，她现在被无尽的饥饿吞噬了。她恳求我帮助她。这时，那个可怜被拒绝的孕妇的灵魂也出现了，代表她恳切地求我。这个女人我也曾经认识。 

As I was still in the relic cave, I knew not where I could get bread and butter, although I was eager to help the poor soul. Then a beautiful, shining youth appeared and pointed to a corner of the cave where was what I wanted : an oval loaf, long as my hand and two fingers thick. It was of a pale yellow color not like our bread. It looked as if it had been rolled up in something and baked under the ashes. By it stood a pot of melted butter and a knife.

虽然我很想帮助这个可怜的灵魂，但由于我还在这个圣髑洞穴中，我不知道上哪儿能得到面包和黄油。这时，一位英俊的、光彩照人的青年出现了，他指着山洞的一个角落说，我要的东西在那里：一个椭圆形的面包，和我的手一样长，两根手指的厚度。它是淡黄色的，不像我们的面包。它看起来好像是被什么东西卷起来，在碳灰下烘烤的。旁边放着一壶融化的黄油和一把餐刀。

I tried to spread the butter thickly on the bread but it always ran back into the pot ; and, at last, the whole thing fell from my hands into the dirt. Then the youth said : ‘See, that is because you always want to do too much (1),’ and he bade me scrape up the butter and clean it. When I gave the bread to the woman, she thanked me, saying that she would soon be in a better state and then she would pray for me.

我试着把黄油厚厚地涂在面包上，但黄油总是流回壶里；最后，整个东西从我的手中落到了泥土里。然后年轻人说：『看，那是因为你总是想做太多（1），』他吩咐我把黄油刮起来擦干净。当我把面包递给那位女人时，她感谢我，说她很快就会升到炼狱更好的状态中，然后她会为我祈祷。 

(1) These souls appeared to Sister Emmerich in a place to which she had been transported in spirit. She could aid them, as she was still living. Weight and measure had to be observed, since satisfaction must be proportioned to the debt. To give to one soul more than is necessary is to take away from another. Sister Emmerich participates in the merits of the holy martyrs which they acquired during their mortal career.

(1) 艾曼丽修女曾在灵里被转送到一个地方，这个地方的灵魂显现给艾曼丽修女。艾曼丽修女可以帮助这些灵魂，因为她还活着。艾曼丽修女的补赎必须遵守份量和尺度，因为补赎必须与债务成比例。给予一个灵魂超过他所必需的，就是从另一个灵魂拿走他需要的，艾曼丽修女分享了殉道圣人在尘世生涯中获得的神圣殉道者的功绩。 

— Then came another woman carrying a small bag of salt. She had been a little niggardly. She told me with tears that she had once refused a little salt to a poor woman, and now for punishment she had to beg salt. She asked me to give her some, and the youth showed me where to get it. It was very different from our salt, damp, coarse, and yellow. I took one of the smallest grains to fill up the measure.

接着又来了另一个妇女。手里提着一小袋盐。她以前有点吝啬。她流着泪告诉我，她曾经拒绝给一位贫穷的女人一点盐，现在为了惩罚她，她不得不去讨盐。她让我给她一些盐，那位青年告诉我去哪里可以得到。那盐和我们的盐很不一样，潮湿、粗糙、发黄。我拿了最小颗粒的一把盐装满了她的小袋子。  

But every time I laid it on the pile it fell off, and again did I receive the same reproof. When I had given her the salt, she disappeared satisfied, promising to pray for me. Darkness reigned in the cave, the sacred things alone shone brightly. The youth then took me to the place where the martyrs suffered and to a charnel-house, such as I had seen before, to assure me that all was real, and then he brought me back to my bed."

但每次我把盐堆起来，盐堆就会倒下来，我又一次受到同样的责备。当我把盐给她后，她满意地消失了，她承诺会为我祈祷。黑暗笼罩着洞窟，唯有圣物闪耀着光芒。然后年轻人带我到殉道圣人受难的地方和一个我以前见过的尸骨存放所，並向我保证这一切都是真实的，然后他把我带回到我的床上。」

Nov. 28th — “I saw a great conflagration. The Landrath's house was all on fire. Sparks and burning beams flew around wounding people far and near, but not setting anything on fire. I was sorry for the man's misfortune ; but I soon found out that I and not he was to be the sufferer.

11 月 28 日——「我看到了一场大火。兰德拉斯的房子整个着火了。火花和燃烧的光束四处飞散，伤了远近的人，但没有点燃任何东西。我为这个人的不幸感到遗憾；但我很快发现，受苦的是我而不是他。

An enormous firebrand, like a burning flitch of bacon, was carried by the wind over my head ; but a soul warded it off and it fell to the ground. She said : ‘It does not burn me. I have had to undergo a very different fire, but now I am well- off.' Then I saw, to my great joy, that it was the soul of an old peasant- woman who was very fond of me in my childhood, and who had often complained to me of the trouble her daughter gave her.

一根巨大的火把，像一块燃烧的腊肉，被风吹到我的头顶；但一个灵魂挡住了它，火把掉在了地上。灵魂说：『这火不会烧到我。我不得不经历一场非常不同的火（炼火），但我现在安然无恙。』然后，我欣喜地发现，那是一位老农妇的灵魂，她在我很小的时候就非常喜欢我，经常向我抱怨她女儿给她带来的麻烦。

I had shown her affection and cleaned her when covered with vermin. This soul had been thirty years out of the body ; she was extraordinarily bright and beautiful. She thanked me with a frank and joyous air, and told me how rejoiced she was to be able to help me now in return for what my prayers had done for her. 

当老农妇身上长满寄生虫时，我向她表达了关爱并为她祈祷。这个灵魂已经离开身体三十年了；如今她格外明亮和美丽。她坦诚而喜悦地感谢我，并告诉我，她现在能够帮助我以回报我为她所做的祈祷，她是多么的欣喜。

She bade me be comforted ; that I had, it was true, still much to suffer, but that I should accept all quietly and uncomplainingly from God ; that she would help and protect me as far as she could. ' And,' she added, ‘I am not the only one who helps thee. Ah ! thou hast so many protectors ! See, all for whom thou hast prayed, whom thou hast assisted — all will help thee in thy need.'

她让我安心；的确，我还有很多痛苦，但我应该安静地、毫无怨言地接受来自天主的一切安排；她会尽可能地帮助和保护我。而且，老农妇补充说，『我不是唯一帮助你的人。啊！你有这么多的保护者！看，你为之祈祷和你帮助过的人——所有的人都会在你需要时帮助你。』

Then she pointed to many souls that I knew ; they were in various situations, and all were going to protect me. I cannot say enough of the joy and satisfaction I felt on beholding the splendor and beauty of this old woman whom we used to call Aunty.

然后她指出了我认识的许多灵魂；他们处境各不相同，所有人都会保护我。看到这位我们常称之为阿姨的老妇人的光彩和美丽，我感到无比的喜悦和满足。

"But I saw all this time the Landrath's house burning more fiercely, and I felt that it was a picture of the consequences of his wickedness, of the ruin ad unhappiness in store for him. I pitied him from my heart, and I begged the soul to pray and get prayers that God might not punish him for the evil he had done or still would do me. I begged that he might be treated as if he had loaded me with benefits and, on this condition, I would accept all sufferings. She promised and disappeared.

「但在这段时间里，我看到兰德拉斯家的房子燃烧得更猛烈了，我觉得这是他邪恶的后果的一幅画，是他即将到来的不幸的毁灭的一幅画。我发自内心地同情他，我恳求老农妇为兰德拉斯的灵魂祈祷，祈祷天主不要因为他对我做过或将要对我做的坏事而惩罚他。我恳求天主对待他，就当作给我带来好处的人一样，在这个条件下，我愿意接受一切苦难。老农妇答应我的请求，然后就消失了。

 “Afterward I had to carry the Landrath up a mountain, which greatly fatigued me. I had already had to do this for many others. Long ago, even before he came to see me, I had to carry the Pilgrim in vision, which labor represents the exertion necessary to lead a soul into the way of salvation. When St. Francis Xavier was sent to convert the pagans, he often carried black men on his shoulders in vision."

「后来，我不得不背着兰德拉斯上山，这让我非常疲惫。我已经不得不为许多其他人这样做了。很久以前，甚至在朝圣者来见我之前，我就不得不背着 "朝圣者 "看神视，这种劳动代表着将灵魂引向救赎之路所必须付出的努力。当圣方济.沙勿略被派遣皈化异教徒时，他经常在异象中将黑人扛在肩上。」

In the first week of Advent, Sister Emmerich had her last vision relating to her persecutors. “I had to struggle all night, I am worn out with the sad pictures I saw. My guide took me all around the earth through immense black caverns built by the powers of darkness, and filled with people wandering about in sin. It was as if I went over all the habitable points of the globe and saw nothing but sin. I often saw new troops of men falling from on high into the blindness of vice.

在将临期的第一周，艾曼丽修女看到了与迫害她的人有关的最后一个神视。「我整晚都在挣扎，看到的悲惨画面让我心力交瘁。护守天神带我环游地球，穿过由黑暗势力建造的巨大的黑色洞穴，里面到处都是在罪恶中徘徊的人。我好像走遍了地球上所有适合人类居住的地方，看到的只有罪恶。我经常看到新来的一群人从高处盲目地坠入罪恶的桎梏中。 

I saw nothing good. I saw, in general, more men than women, the children were few. Often when I was overcome by the sight, my guide brought me for a little while out into the light, into a meadow or beautiful region where the sun shone, but where there were no people ; afterward I had to return into the darkness and see again the malice, blindness, pride, deceit, envy, avarice, discord, murders, luxury, snares, passions, the horrible wickedness of men —all plunging them into greater misery, deeper darkness.

我没有看到良善。总的来说，我看到，男人比女人多，孩子很少。通常当我被眼前的景象所压倒时，护守天神会带我在阳光下待一会儿，到一片草地或美丽的地方，那里阳光明媚，但没有人；之后，我不得不回到黑暗中，再次看到人类的恶意、盲目、骄傲、欺骗、嫉妒、贪婪、纷争、凶杀、奢侈、陷阱、情欲、可怕的邪恶——所有这些都使他们陷入更大的痛苦，更深的黑暗。

I was under the impression that whole cities were built upon a thin crust which would soon cave in and precipitate them into the abyss. I saw people digging ditches for one another's destruction; but there were no good people here, none falling into the ditches. All these wicked people were in a great dark place, running about at random as in a great fair, grouping together, and enticing one another to sin.

在我的印象中，整个城市都是建在一层薄薄的地壳上，很快就会塌陷，坠入深渊。我看到人们在挖沟，准备互相毁灭；但这里没有好人，没有人掉进沟里。所有这些恶人都在一个非常黑暗的地方，四处乱闯，就像在一个大集市上一样，群聚在一起，互相引诱犯罪。

Sometimes the darkness grew deeper, and the road led down a steep crag, frightful to behold, extending around the whole earth. I saw people of all nationalities, all costumes, and all sunk in crime. At times I awoke in terror, and saw the moon shining brightly in at my window. I groaned in anguish, and begged God to send me no more such frightful pictures ; but I had soon again to descend into those terrible regions of darkness and behold their abomination.

有时，黑暗越来越深，道路通向陡峭的悬崖，可怕的景象环绕着整个大地。我看到了不同国籍、各种民族、各种服饰的人，他们都在犯罪中沉沦。有时，我在惊恐中醒来，看到明亮的月光照在我的窗上。我痛苦地呻吟着，祈求天主不要再给我显示这些可怕的画面；但我很快又不得不再次进入那些可怕的黑暗区域，亲眼目睹那些令人憎恶的东西。

Once I found myself in a sphere so horrible that I thought myself in hell, and I began to weep aloud. My guide said : ' I am by thee, hell cannot be where I am.' Then turning longingly to the poor souls in purgatory, I was transported into the midst of them. It seemed like a place near the earth, and there too I saw inexpressible torments; but they were God-fearing souls who sinned not, who perpetually sighed, hungered, thirsted for deliverance.

有一次，我发现自己身处一个可怕的地方，我认为是在地狱，于是我开始放声大哭。护守天神说：『我在你身边，我所在的地方不可能是地狱。』于是，我就迫切地转向炼狱中可怜的灵魂，我就被带到了他们中间。这似乎是一个靠近地球的地方，在那里我也看到了难以言表的痛苦；但他们都是敬畏天主的灵魂，他们不再犯罪，他们一直在叹息、渴望解救。

They could all see what they longed for and for which they had to wait in patience ; their suffering was full of resignation ; their acknowledgment of their faults and their utter inability to help themselves peculiarly touching. I saw all their sins.

他们都明白自己渴望什么，但又必须耐心等待；他们的痛苦充满了无奈；他们承认自己的过错，特别是完全无法帮助自己，这让我很受触动。我看到了他们所有的罪过。（注：炼灵心里渴望天主而不能见，这灵苦比觉苦更难忍受，但他们晓得在那里受苦炼净自己，完全是为着得以进入天国面见天主的。）

They were in different depths, different degrees of abandonment ; some up to the neck, some to the breast, etc., and they implored aid. After I had prayed for them, I awoke and again begged God to deliver me from these visions. But scarcely had I fallen asleep than I was lead once more into the dark regions. Satan threatened me and placed horrible pictures before me.

炼灵被抛弃在不同的深度，不同的程度；有的深陷到了脖子，有的深陷到了胸部，等等，他们乞求帮助。在我为他们祈祷之后，我醒来并再次祈求天主将我从这些异象中拯救出来。但我刚睡着，就再次被带进了黑暗的区域。撒殚威胁我，把可怕的画面摆在我面前。 

Once I met an insolent devil who said something like the following : 'There was no necessity for your coming down here and seeing everything — now you'll go up above, boast of your trip, and write something about it !' I told him to cease his stupid talk. Once I thought I saw a great, wicked city being undermined by devils who were already far advanced with the work. I thought as it had so many heavy buildings, it must now soon fall in. I had often felt that Paris would sink in, for I see so many caves under it, but not cut out purposely like those in Rome."

有一次，我遇到了一个傲慢的魔鬼，牠说这样的话：『你没有必要到这里来看这一切——现在你要上去，吹嘘你的旅程，然后写点什么！』我告诉魔鬼停止牠愚蠢的讲话。有一次，我好像看到一座邪恶的大城市正在被魔鬼们破坏，牠们的工作已经进展得很顺利了。我想，既然这座城市有这么多厚重的建筑，它一定很快就会陷落。我经常觉得巴黎会陷落，因为我看到它下面有那么多洞穴，但不像罗马的那些洞穴是刻意挖出来的。」

" At last, I reached a large place like one of our own cities. In it was a little more light, and there I was shown a horrible sight, Our Lord Jesus Christ crucified ! My whole soul shuddered, for the executioners were men of our own time, and Our Lord was suffering much more cruelly from them than He did from the Jews. Thank God, it was only a picture ! — ‘So would they,’ said my guide, ' now treat the Lord, could He still suffer.'

「最后，我到了一个很大的地方，就像我们自己的城市一样。在那里，天色稍亮，我看到了一个可怕的景象，我们的主耶稣基督被钉在十字架上！我的整个灵魂都在颤抖，因为刽子手是我们自己时代的人，我们的主遭受的痛苦比他遭受犹太人的痛苦要残酷得多。感谢天主，这只是一幅画！——『他们也会这样对待主，』护守天神说，『祂仍在继续受苦。』 

— I saw with horror among His tormentors men whom I knew, even priests. This place was connected with the dark regions by many veins and ramifications. I saw, too, my own persecutors and how they would treat me, if I fell into their hands ; they would by torture try to make me confirm their false statements.''

我惊恐地看到，在折磨他的人当中，有我认识的人，甚至还有司铎。这个地方与黑暗区域有着千丝万缕的联系。我还看到了我自己的迫害者，如果我落入他们手中，他们会如何对待我；他们会通过酷刑试图让我承认他们的虚假陈述。

The remembrance of this horrible vision made her heart beat with fright. Nothing could induce her to give it entire ; she concluded with these words : “My guide said to me,  ‘Now hast thou seen the horrible blindness and darkness of men. Murmur no more at thy own lot, but pray ! Thy lot is very sweet. “

一想起这可怕的神视，艾曼丽修女就心惊肉跳。什么也不能使她忘记这一切；她最后总结道：『护守天神对我说，现在你已经看到了人类可怕的盲目和黑暗。不要再为你自己的命运抱怨，而要祈祷...... 』你的未来非常美好。」

— This vision was followed by that inquietude I so often feel, that of being accountable for something since so many sins are committed on my account. The dread of disobedience haunts me. My guide said : ' It is pride that makes thee think that only good should happen through thee ! And if thou are not obedient, it is my fault and not thine!"

——在这个异象之后，我经常感到不安，因为我犯下了如此多的罪孽，所以要对某些事负责。违抗命令的恐惧困扰着我。但护守天神说：『是骄傲让你认为只有好事才能发生在你身上！如果你不听命，那是我的错，不是你的！』」

Some days later, she said : " My persecutors will now leave me in peace. I saw that they had a mind to use violence, but they were suddenly seized with fright and became disunited. I saw it under the picture of a fire breaking out among them. One mistrusts the other and fears being betrayed. My Spouse has told me that I will not yield to impatience. I shall have a little repose to finish reading the last five leaves of my great book. I must have rest that I may leave its contents after me. I have still much, very much to do!”

几天后，艾曼丽修女说：「现在迫害我的人可以让我安息了。我看到他们本想使用暴力，但突然被吓坏了，变得四分五裂。我看到他们中间燃起了大火。一方不信任另一方，害怕被出卖。我的净配告诉我，我不能急躁。我将稍事休息，以读完我那本伟大著作的最后五页。我必须休息一下，以便把书中的内容留在我身后。我还有很多，很多事要做！」

On Dec. 14th, she had a vision of an ecclesiastical investigation that would be instituted after her death. Whilst in ecstasy, she related to the Pilgrim : “I saw the clergy receiving from Rome letters commissioning them to proceed to an investigation in due form. I saw after this a church in which there were no seats. It seemed to me that it had once been desecrated, but was now restored. It was a solid, angular old building, but beautiful ; no hollow wooden ornaments about it, no sham gold. The clergy entered in silence.

12 月 14 日，艾曼丽修女看到了一个异象，教会将在她死后展开调查。在神魂超拔中，她对朝圣者说：「我看到神职人员收到了罗马的信，委托他们以适当的方式进行调查。之后，我看到一座没有座位的教堂。在我看来，这座教堂曾经被亵渎过，但现在又被修复了。那是一座坚固的、棱角分明的古老建筑，但很美，没有镂空的木制装饰品，也没有虚假的金饰。神职人员静默地走了进来。

With their exception, there was no one in the church but the saints and my own soul. They drew a coffin from one of the vaults, carried it before the altar, opened it as if about to make a trial of something, and left it open whilst they celebrated High Mass. Then they cut from one of the hands a consecrated finger, for in the coffin was the body of a holy Bishop.

除了他们之外，教堂里没有人，只有圣人和我自己的灵魂。他们从一个地窖里取出一口棺材，把它抬到祭坛前，打开它，好像要审查什么似的，然后在举行隆重弥撒时把棺材打开，然后他们从其中一只手上切下一根祝圣了的手指，因为棺材里躺着一位神圣主教的尸体。

They laid the relic on the altar and replaced the coffin in the vault. I felt that they were coming to me with the relic, and I ran off home. They came, and were very strict and grave. I know not what they did to me, for I was on high as if in a beautiful meadow, and still at the same time up in the clouds, by the old Bishop whose finger had been cut off. It was wrapped in red velvet and one of the clergy carried it on his breast.

他们把圣髑放在祭坛上，把棺材放回墓穴里。我觉得他们带着圣髑来找我，我就跑回家了。他们来了，非常严历和严肃。我不知道他们对我做了什么，因为我当时就像在美丽的草地的上方，同时我又被那位手指被砍掉的老主教带到云端。手指被红色天鹅绒包裹着，其中一名神职人员将手指抱在胸前。

I was now suddenly united to my body again by the holy Bishop, and I arose and looked in amazement at all the gentlemen. After the investigation, I again saw the clergy in the church from which they had taken the finger. They now put it back into the coffin under the altar, and a great thanksgiving was celebrated.— The church was full of people and there were also many saints and souls present, with whom I sang in Latin.

现在神圣的主教突然使我的灵魂重新与我的身体结合在一起，我站起来惊奇地看着所有的先生们。调查结束后，我再次看到了神职人员在取走手指的教堂里。他们现在把手指放回祭坛下面的棺材里，举行了盛大的感恩祭。——教堂里挤满了人，还有许多圣人和灵魂在场，我和他们一起用拉丁语唱经。

 “Afterward I had a vision of a new convent. Still it was as if it all took place after my death. Had I lived longer, they would have made me undergo a great trial; so I must die first. The end that they propose can be as well attained after my death as before. I saw also that after my death, some one will cut off one of my hands, and here and there changes will be quietly made in the churches in which relics will be more honored and again exposed for public veneration."

「后来，我有了一个新修道院的异象，但这一切好像发生在我死后。如果我再活久一点，他们就会让我经受巨大的考验；所以我必须先死。他们提出的目标，在我死后也能像以前一样实现。我还看到，在我死后，有人会砍掉我的一只手，教堂里到处都会悄悄地发生变化，在那里，圣髑更加受尊重，并再次公开供人瞻仰。」

When the Pilgrim mentioned this vision to Sister Emmerich's confessor, he remarked: “She has often enjoined upon me when she thought herself dying and I carried her the Sacraments, she being in ecstasy, to cut off one of her hands after her death. I know not why she said this unless she intended to intimate that it would retain the power of recognizing relics.

当朝圣者向艾曼丽修女的神师提到这个异象时，神师评论道：「每当她自以为快死了，当我为她举行临终圣事时，她也正处于神魂超拔中，她就经常嘱咐我，死后要砍掉她的一只手。我不知道她为什么这么说，除非她想暗示她的手死后仍能保留识别圣髑的能力。 

She often told me that even after death, she would be obedient to my orders in quality of confessor. And of the priest's consecrated fingers she says that were his body fallen to dust and his soul in hell, yet will the consecration still be recognized in the bones of the fingers. They will burn with an altogether peculiar fire, so ineffaceable is the mark."

她经常告诉我，即使在死后，她也会尊我为神师而服从我的命令。她说神父被祝圣奉献了的手指，即使在他的身体化为尘土，他的灵魂堕在地狱中，但圣化的痕迹仍然可以从手指的骨头里辨认出来。手指会以一种完全奇特的火焰燃烧，因为那是不可抹去的印记。」